My best friend doesn't like me but lets me cuddle him

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So me (girl) and my best friend (boy) have been friends since kindergarden. We have done everything together and when I am with him i feel the most like myself. I am essentially a part of his family, and he says he is the most himself when he is with me, and doesn't have to put on a show. He has always know that i have liked him when i told him in 7th grade, and i am now 22 years old still having feelings for him even though i have tried to move on, and date other people. Our friendship has changed in the fact that now when we are watching a movie he likes it when i give him back rubs, head massages, and lets me rub his legs almost to where his d*** is. I feel stupid every time because i tell myself i will NOT do this anymore but it kind of arouses me, and is frustrating because he will barely touch me back if at all. He says that he can not have those kind of feelings and that he just doesn't have those love feelings, he doesn't get relationships and actually thinks kissing is gross, but is always kind of going back and forth with what he says, especially by allowing me to touch him. I know that this is never going to go anywhere, but it is so hard to find another guy that i can connect with..... It makes me angry that he has never addressed our touching ways, and i am far to embarrassed to bring it up. Why do i continue to be on this self-destructive path. (There is so many more facts and information that could go along with this) But the main thing i would want to know is why does he let me do this if he doesn't believe in marriage, thinks kissing is gross, sex is weird, etc. (He says he loves me in a friend way, but i can't keep being his Friend Slave) I want to feel loved and special, i just can't find the right person yet. Anyways any advice or questions would be helpful on the situation as it has been going on for what seems my entire life from 5 years old until now at 22. Thank you.

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  • Shackleford96
    12 years ago

    I really like your term, "friend slave." Sorry about your problem. I had a similar situation to yours. A girl I liked kept me around for three + years and never did give us a chance. All she did was use me. I finally got fed up with it and left one day. I do not regret the time we shared, she was mostly a good friend. What I do regret, though, is hanging around her for as long as I did and hoping that something would change maybe.

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  • flyerfly
    7 years ago

    well sounds like he just wants to be friends but...but why dont you talk to him here say this ''well i like you but more than a friend'' see what he says just don't give up trust me i know how you feel that has happened to me im 18 im female...so good luck

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  • imacomputer
    12 years ago

    It sounds like he might have some kind of emotional damage as far as sexual contact goes. He probably loves you a lot, but can't go into the sexual territory because of some past experience he's had. It probably has nothing to do with you, and a lot to do with his past experience.

    Of coarse I could be way way off too, but I've always noticed that "outsiders looking in" can see the real picture more clearly than the "people stuck in the middle of the problem" if that makes any sense.

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