Mental health problems(?)

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I really didn't know how to shorten what I wrote.. so this is a kinda long post about, something.
I finally found this place again. Was searching for it for a while.
So, I went back and looked at what I've asked in my past here and the problems I needed an answer to back then have grown and are still problems of my life.
In a post earlier I asked why I was afraid of talking to people and to many it seemed like social anxiety. I'm not sure if that's gone now since I can find myself talking with random people easily, but I don't know if that's just because I've stopped caring about everything. I don't really care about my family. I don't really care about my friends (I recently discovered none of the near a hundrer people were my friends, shocking at first but then again, don't care). I don't really care if I get up from my bed and do my daily chores. I get blamed for being attached to electronics yet I couldn't care less if I had anything at least trying to cheer me up. I don't find things enjoyable anymore. Some things like, dancing was one of my interests a few months back still, but I don't know why I'm not that interested in it anymore. I really liked writing too, but now I can't think of anything. I've played many physical sports, done many artistic things, even video games were on my list of favorite things. Now when someone asks, I just keep them there to have at least some kind of connection for someone to talk to me. I recently also discovered that I actually don't like to listen to music. I just like how it fills the silence or lets me ignore everyone around me by not hearing them.
I've been to a therapist, but she didn't understand me at all. I tried explaining things to her, but talking was so hard and when I typed and sent it by email she just ignored.
I'm sure I don't have any type of things that would need extra care so I came here to ask for how to try and fix things in my life. I really don't feel that living like this is satisfying for anyone and I don't know why I keep going, but I do and wish to get some type of help to give direction on what I should do.

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  • CozmoWank
    4 years ago

    It sounds like right now your big problem is depression. That can really cause you to have a lack of interest in things that used to bring you some joy or happiness. I used to have problems with panic disorder, social anxiety, & depression and it can get all balled up and impossible to sort out without the help of a professional.
    Your therapist sucks. Find another one. They will be able to give you help you'll never get from strangers on the internet. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Good luck to you.

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  • Golias
    4 years ago

    Firstly, it's good to know you went to a therapist, although a very shitty one. I'd recommend finding another one that truly cares for you.

    Secondly, that feeling of hopelessness about being able to enjoy something again is normal. I experience it sometimes, it comes and goes. Although not as strong as yours, it's a shitty feeling that sucks the joy of everything you can think of.

    So, to fight that, I usually try to do new things that I have never done or that I don't do for quite some years. To me it was dancing, making a puzzle, learning how to code, going to the beach, etc...

    I really wish I could come up with better advice to help you. But hang in there, you're never alone.

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  • controversy
    4 years ago

    TL;DR Take antidepressants plus benzos.

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  • RoseIsabella
    4 years ago

    I think you should use paragraphs.

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