Me and my childhood friend had gay sex

Me and my friend, whose name I shall keep anonymous, Had sex. It all started when he told me over whatsapp that he and his girlfriend where having problems (Just to clarify we are both teens) so I tried to be supportive by telling him to take the time to listen to her. So he did but things only got worse. She dumped him and that kinda made him snap because now he was coming out to me that he was gay. I internally screamed because he has a long history with girls. Anyway he told me to meet me at his house so we could "discuss". I knew where it was going but i went anyway. Both of his parents were gone to work serving out graveyard shifts so he was alone. When I got To his room I found him striking a profane pose is nothing but his underwear,Groping his dick. I could of turned away and ran like hell, but I stayed probs because I'm bi. my heart started racing and i slowly undressed into my underwear, hard and afraid. I started humping him furiously just to get him hard. We both took off our underwear and now it was getting bad. I wasn't ready yet so I floppped my penis above his ass and just humped his naked ass and with my balls. He squealed and whimpered like a wimp and now I took things seriously.I fucked his poor ass til it turned red.There was no turning back. We had both reached orgasm and now it was just grunts, moans and aggresive screaming.We stopped and started kissing for 5 minutes. The poor boy was egesting all the cum in his ass all over the sheets.After that we just took things slow... we jerked each other off. By now we had completely lost it and now we were into a pee fetish.On my way home i cried but not fully in regret. I wanted the feeling of blood rushing back. After the occasion we had sex in the showers at his house to clean off all the piss and cum. I told him I loved him and his big hard dick and he told me the same and we kinda just kissed while a violently pulverized his rectum . After this occasion we had sex again in A bathroom stall but we haven't considered dating because it's forbidden to be gay in our neighbourhood.Whenever we see each other it's awkward but we're in love and that only makes us long for sex even more. As I'm writing this I'm tearing up because I miss my little Fucktoy. Please tell me what