Masturbation as a prostitute

like sabbatha said ... and i have the same experience with two guys , it was always a fantacy before, espically since it almost happened at a beach party once... but when it finally did happen it was nothing like i pictured .. it was with two much older basically huge lossers, and the whole experience effected my life in a big way! it was not some fantacy passion of being filled but basically being humilated and used like a toilet... something that plays over and over .... so i would say to you your fantacy is likley nothing like you can ever imagine compared to the reality .. the smells tastes .. look in someones eyes whos using you all lingers every day .... if you want those kinda fantacy pick someone who cares about you ,,, not someone like a stranger you'll never see again ... to many girls make that mistake coz they feel shame to share those things with a hook-up friend or bf etc .... good luck to you , and PS yes its normal :)

i have fantasized about the very same thing. I don't think it's abnormal.It's just a fantasy, it's unlikely that you really want to be a prostitute. our fantasies don't always reflect what we want in real life.
for example, i used to fantasize about being with 2 guys at once but when i actually tried it i felt awful and disgusting i was so ashamed and embarrassed.
it felt so much better when i was imagining it because it could play out exactly the way i wanted it to.

It's pretty common to have fantasies in which one feels abused, used or out of control. Just make sure that you find people that you can truly trust when you decide to make these fantasies a reality. Most people in your situation have a "safe word" to use with their sexual partners in order to signify that an uncomfortable line has been crossed. For example, if you enjoy being used and abused, it is natural to scream in pain and say things like "no!" or "stop!" or "help me!" and this can be part of the experience. But if you say "asparagus tips!", then your partner knows to actually stop what he/she is doing. "Asparagus tips" is just an example and you should agree on a "safe word" with your partner before beginning your activities. Have fun but be careful.