Masturbating on web cam
I am a 41 year old happily married woman with two teenage kids and husband who loves me. We have had a difficult couple of years with him having an affair - which he ended when we talked and talked and worked alot of things out about our relationship that had gone wrong. We've also been dealing with business and financial stresses.
We discovered a live web cam, chat site that we would go on together - but I sometimes go on by myself and end up masturbating on camera for the men on the site. My husband knows I do this sometimes but when asked directly, I lie or even sometimes don't remember having done it at all!! I feel disgusted with myself when I think about it - but I also just wish I could be comfortable admitting I'm an exhibitionist to myself. I don't know if this is acceptable or normal or how I can come to terms with it. We have great sex and play together too sometimes on cam and sometimes we have threesomes with other girls. I am not ashamed nor do I feel disgusted when I think of the fun we've had together - only when I think of masturbating on cam for strangers. If it makes me feel that way after - why do I do it??and should I stop??