Madonna/whore complex

I was doing research into some of my many conditions and I stumbled upon something called the "Madonna/Whore" Complex. Apparently it leads to sexual dysfunction because the male associates sex with a "degrading" of the female.

"Where men love they have no desire, where they desire, they have no love"

Or some shit like that. So basically, sometimes, I cant get it up because I subconsciously view having sex with her as "degrading" to her virtue. I only do this with overly attractive women which, unfortunately, I don't have a problem attracting because of my own looks. I also tend to get pissed off when the woman's actual personality doesn't fit the fantasy I constructed about her and I even go so far as to fantasize about murdering her only after I find out the fantasy wasn't true. I've even had to kick some women out of my house to physically protect them from anything happening to them, which must have been terribly confusing for them but how the fuck do you explain that to someone. It also could be that I just want to destroy something beautiful, not really sure. Wonder if Ted Bundy went through the same thing? Well anyway I wouldn't ever do that because I don't want to go to prison. I don't know why I included that, maybe it is just another part of my overall sociopathic personality.

I always put pussy up on the pedestal so I guess that's part of the whole condition and it makes more sense to me now. I choose to vent this stuff here because I cant tell anyone this in real life for obvious reasons.

Well I guess I'm fucked. Oh well.