Lonely but happy i guess.
I haven't had a woman in over 45 years. It lasted about 5 years and haven't found another girlfriend since. I try not to think about it but the longer I'm alone the worse I feel about myself like I'm worthless and ugly. I tried a few times with my ex landlady but she only wanted me around to help her do things around her house and told me she didn't want to have sex or anything like that. Just friends. So I told her I wanted more than that so she told me to leave and never come back. After that I gave up on finding a woman. I guess I'll die from old age without one. Everyone I know has a wife or girlfriend except me. Oh well.