Life problems
Have you ever hated yourself yet at other times can appreciate yourself. Sometimes you feel very happy, but at other times like when you're alone, you're just overwhelmed with extreme guilt and/or regret and loneliness. You think about all the problems you have, but other days, you think of all the great things you have. You compare yourself to others and say that you're worse off than they are whether its financially, socially, etc. and then it changes and you're better. You hate people, but you take it back and say its just a strong dislike. I act a certain way and then sometimes, if I have time, I reflect and think how I would acted differently. How I should of been instead. How I wanted to have been instead. It's like extremities at different times. You know take things for granted, yet other times you appreciate it. You're really confident some days and other days your completely quiet, shy, angry, pissed, etc. You feel so important some times, and other times you feel inferior to friggin' everything. You want to be social, but sometimes you're just anti-social. I have trust issues, but I want to build trust between people. I hate people because I know they will hate me, but I also want to like people. I don't know, it's just something that really makes me think about who I am as a person, maybe too self-conscious. Yeah...that's the word to sum everything up. Self-conscious. is it normal to feel like this?