Lesbian posse.

This is a little weird so, try to bare with me. The start of this story happened quite a few years back, when I used to be an acolyte at an Episcopal church. I was servicing a baptism for the relatives of a woman who was a regular at the church.
During the service, I noticed a woman that I had never seen before, but she looked very similar to that of the lady who was a regular. So, after the service, I was talking to the woman who was a regular and the new woman got up and came over near us. I asked the lady who I had been talking to if this was her sister and she said "no".

Well, the other lady, let's call her "Possum", ended up returning to the church and she became a regular. I loved talking to this woman. She had a wonderful outgoing and eccentric personality, that it was easy to gravitate towards her. She ended up leaving. I don't remember her returning until Spring 2009 when the church had a flower sale. We hadn't seen each other for awhile so, we didn't quite remember each other straight off of the bat.

However, we soon got to talking and really hit it off and the memories of who we were started to come back. We talked about everything from her love of plants, to places she had lived and the stocks. I loved talking to her and I'll admit, I did find myself developing a crush on the woman.

I ended up leaving the church, secretly because I renounced the religion, and I didn't come back until 2010, 2011 or 2012 when the church was having a flea market. I came to help out and catch up on things with the people. Well, I met up with the then priest, a supposedly lesbian woman. We got to talking and the subject of Possum came up. The priest, let's call her "Badger", insisted that I come into her dark office to chit-chat. I have to admit, even though I had known this woman for a really long time, being in that office with her made me very uncomfortable.

There was only one other time that I can think of, where we were alone to a have a special talk. It was when I too thought that I was a lesbian and I told her. She supported me and it stayed our and some of the other gay members' secret. Well, by this time I was knew that I was really bisexual, but she didn't know this…

The conversation shifted to Possum, which resulted in her giving me Possum's email address as well as telling me more about this woman. While I was talking about her she suddenly asked me something along the lines of,"You really like her a lot, don't you?" I was so naive back then that I didn't realize exactly what this woman was trying to insinuate so, stupid me said, "Yes."

After the conversation she escorted me to her door. Near the door, she looked me in the eye and told me "Don't be a stranger" with this woman and to contact her. Again, I didn't look deeper into this at the time. Looking back on the event, I get the feeling that she was trying to hook me up with this woman. Keep in mind that I was either 14-16, a minor, at the time and Possum had to have been in her late-forties. When I got home, I felt so guilty about what happened, as if I had done something taboo. I told my mom about the email, but I neglected to tell her about exactly what went down, as I knew that it would cause trouble. She thought that it was weird and advised me against emailing this woman.

Early last year, I returned to the church for a short visit and Badger took me aside and coyly asked if I had contacted Possum. I said "No." She seemed disappointed and urged me not to wait around and keep her hanging.

I am an adult now and recently, I thought it might be a nice idea to email Possum. I would love to catch up with her on things. We had so much in common that I think it would be a huge missed opportunity to not get to know each other better. Professionally speaking, I have been thinking about becoming a botanist and I think that I could learn a lot from her. I worry what Badger might have told her about me. I worry if she'll think that I want to date her, not that I'm not open to the idea, but I'm mainly interested in keeping things platonic between us. Is it normal?

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  • jeebley

    Things in Farthing Wood used to be so simple...

    It's pretty outta line for Badger to be hooking a 16 y.o you up with a Possum in her 40's. Maybe she wasn't doing that at all, maybe it was just a friendly church type of thing.. You could be misinterpreting it in your memory-cogs, but I doubt it.
    Anyway, if you decide to contact her and are unsure what you want, just push any thoughts of a 'hookup' out of your mind.
    Keep your mind 'innocent' and that's how it will play out if you want. You shouldn't miss out on a friendship for this reason - I think you might regret it. Although there will always be other squirrels and beavers to play with.

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    • Thank you. Badger did one other inappropriate thing which was shortly after I came out to her, she insisted that I kiss her in front of everyone. I didn't want to but, I had to since she was so fucking persistent. She also told me to relax and that I need more experience, or something like that. Was she trying to test those waters with me?

      I want to be as innocent as possible with this, but I'll try to be on guard, just incase.

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      • jeebley

        Wow. She really shouldn't have been badgering you like that. That was awful. She must have been nearly blind not to have seen your discomfort.
        It all sounds a bit wrong to me, and I don't think you should contact Possum. But if you do, I just hope you don't sett yourself up for something you're not comfortable with.
        Good luck with everything.

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        • eastbeast

          'Badgering'
          'Sett yourself up'

          I see what you did there!

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          • jeebley

            Oh....You got me! ;)

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        • Fuck! I already did. I'm starting to regret this action of mine. She still hasn't responded and while it would be nice to hear from her, I find myself worrying. What she's mad? I can't remember if already stated this or not but, I worry about whether or not any conversations that we do have will truly be private. I don't know exactly what sort of relationship Possum has with Badger. If she has the tendency towards telling her things, I really don't want Badger knowing about my personal business. She seems to think that I like her when I really there's something about her that irks me. I think she irked a lot of other people because, some people, the the gay couples especially, seemed to have been driven away to another church. Its a shame because, I was close to some of those people.

          The more I contemplate about this, the more I am certain that I wouldn't want a relationship with this person. Besides, I am already in love with someone else. This whole time I haven't known Possum's stance and/or involvement in all of this. I would hate if she and Badger have a weird, whatever you want to call it, behind my back. I don't want wool to be pulled over my eyes and I certainly don't want to be manipulated as some sort of "plaything" for them.

          Thank you.

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          • eastbeast

            Throw caution to the wind and have a three-way then post the pics here.

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            • Your eyes might be traumatized if they were to see such a sight. I know I certainly feel unsettled when I think about me and Possum being romantic!

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  • Crusades

    Wow. So many repressed homosexuals in church.

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    • Shame on you for your naivety, Crusades. I would've thought that the truth would have been a tad bit more obvious.

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  • Tommythecat.

    You could have explained that within a couple of sentences.

    You got me to read all that shit.

    How dare you.

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    • Something tells me that if this post contain really good lesbian erotica, you wouldn't be complaining about the length.

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      • eastbeast

        We've never heard Tommythecat complain about length before.

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      • Riddler

        Your title made me LOL. Lesbian posse, RIGHT ON!

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      • Tommythecat.

        But it didn't!

        It was all shit!!!!

        How dare you!

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        • Perhaps, I can make it up to you? An epic and kinky erotic post could be put into the works! ;)

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          • NeofelisNebulosa

            Whoa, count me in!! ;)

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            • eastbeast

              me too

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          • Tommythecat.

            That's more like it.

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  • shuggy-chan

    Aint no posse like a lesbian posse

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    • There's always a posse of water fowl.

      And usually, where there is water, you can almost be certain that there will be fowl…

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    • RoseIsabella

      Cause a lesbian posse don't stop...

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      • Neither does a flock of seagulls!

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        • RoseIsabella

          I walked along the avenue.
          I never thought I'd meet a girl like you;
          Meet a girl like you.
          With auburn hair and tawny eyes;
          The kind of eyes that hypnotize me through;
          Hypnotize me through.

          And I ran, I ran so far away.
          I just ran, I ran all night and day.
          I couldn't get away.

          A cloud appears above your head;
          A beam of light comes shining down on you,
          Shining down on you.
          The cloud is moving nearer still.
          Aurora Borealis comes in view;
          Aurora comes in view.

          And I ran, I ran so far away.
          I just ran, I ran all night and day.
          I couldn't get away.

          Reached out a hand to touch your face;
          You're slowly disappearing from my view;
          Disappearing from my view.
          Reached out a hand to try again;
          I'm floating in a beam of light with you;
          A beam of light with you.

          And I ran, I ran so far away.
          I just ran, I ran all night and day.
          And I ran, I ran so far away.
          I just ran, I couldn't get away.

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  • ThisIsImpossible

    Why dont you fucking tell her you want to keep things platonic for now, obviously not just straightforward like that though, its pretty apparent that everyone in this story can beat around the bush for years.

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    • I would, but this whole time I haven't known what her take on this was. I guess if she ever asks whether or not I'm with someone, I can take that as the cue to tell her that I want to keep things platonic? Or, would it be better to lie and make up a significant other?

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      • ThisIsImpossible

        What's the point in lying? I guess it would add to the dramatic situation when she somehow finds out, like a plot twist or some shit. You'll prolly go for that one no matter what I say.

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        • Lying would always have to be a last resort. I hate having to lie and I only do it when absolutely necessary. I am scared because, I have been regretting ever sending Possum an email. There were possibilities that I failed to consider. No offense to any of you, but I probably should have consulted my therapist on this in the first place.

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  • SkullsNRoses

    So Possum didn't actually flirt with you, but Badger was acting as the unwanted matchmaker?

    Do you have any proof Badger told Possum of your supposed feelings? And if she did would Possum have thought much of it, considering that you never mention actually flirting with her?

    I'd say e-mail her if you want to, you're over-agonising a bit.

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    • I don't recall her flirting to me. I think Badger was trying to match us up. Shortly after that time I came out to her, during that meet and greet stage during church service, in front of everyone, she told me to kiss her. I didn't want to, but she was just so damn persistent and she wouldn't let me leave so that I could back to my seat. I kissed her weakly on the cheek and I think she told me to relax and that either needed to practice more or something else? Would this qualify as sexual abuse?

      I have no idea if she told Possum, though she probably did. I don't know if she would have thought much about it. She probably was flattered, if nothing more. I don't recall ever flirting with her, but it is possible that my actions towards her could have come off as such, whether I intended this or not.

      I will e-mail her. Thank you. :)

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      • SkullsNRoses

        I don't think that would qualify as sexual abuse, but it's still inappropriate.

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        • I see… Could it be possible that is something inappropriate going on behind the scenes or am I just being paranoid?

          I have wonder if it was due to cultural differences but I am not so sure. Badger's family struck me as not really being her real family, more like adoptive, but I could always be wrong. I think they were Greeks but I also got a Yiddish vibe from these people too. As far as I know, it is not in either culture to pull a stunt such as this. I think that she might have been trying to test my "newfound" lesbianism. It was about a week or two after I had come out as gay to her. I think any normal and ethical person would just leave it at LGBT support and just that. I don't think that they would do this…

          I was sexually abused as a child so, perhaps, I am just reading into things. However, I starting to have the unshakable and rising feeling that something untoward was going on then and now, almost as if I've stepped into a trap. O_O

          If it truly does come out that way, I suppose I could talk to a lawyer but, it would be so embarrassing as well as further complicating my life.

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  • DarkestMoon

    And the point was.....? Any who, nice read.

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  • dannygjk

    I doubt any relationship will develop after so many years.
    You waited too long :)

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    • I certainly hope this to be true. She still hasn't responded… It might be because my email account had an issue with spam so, hopefully she's too mad at me to want to send a reply.

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  • robbieforgotpw

    Nice book bro

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  • NeofelisNebulosa

    Look honey, if youre like 20 years younger than these ladies you don't need to have your first lesbian experience with them. Find someone closer to your own age! It sounds all messed up and complicated anyway. It's weird that they're being so pushy and it's very bad that she forced you to kiss her in front of all those people! You might end up getting hurt emotionally by these women.

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