Lesbian posse.
This is a little weird so, try to bare with me. The start of this story happened quite a few years back, when I used to be an acolyte at an Episcopal church. I was servicing a baptism for the relatives of a woman who was a regular at the church.
During the service, I noticed a woman that I had never seen before, but she looked very similar to that of the lady who was a regular. So, after the service, I was talking to the woman who was a regular and the new woman got up and came over near us. I asked the lady who I had been talking to if this was her sister and she said "no".
Well, the other lady, let's call her "Possum", ended up returning to the church and she became a regular. I loved talking to this woman. She had a wonderful outgoing and eccentric personality, that it was easy to gravitate towards her. She ended up leaving. I don't remember her returning until Spring 2009 when the church had a flower sale. We hadn't seen each other for awhile so, we didn't quite remember each other straight off of the bat.
However, we soon got to talking and really hit it off and the memories of who we were started to come back. We talked about everything from her love of plants, to places she had lived and the stocks. I loved talking to her and I'll admit, I did find myself developing a crush on the woman.
I ended up leaving the church, secretly because I renounced the religion, and I didn't come back until 2010, 2011 or 2012 when the church was having a flea market. I came to help out and catch up on things with the people. Well, I met up with the then priest, a supposedly lesbian woman. We got to talking and the subject of Possum came up. The priest, let's call her "Badger", insisted that I come into her dark office to chit-chat. I have to admit, even though I had known this woman for a really long time, being in that office with her made me very uncomfortable.
There was only one other time that I can think of, where we were alone to a have a special talk. It was when I too thought that I was a lesbian and I told her. She supported me and it stayed our and some of the other gay members' secret. Well, by this time I was knew that I was really bisexual, but she didn't know this…
The conversation shifted to Possum, which resulted in her giving me Possum's email address as well as telling me more about this woman. While I was talking about her she suddenly asked me something along the lines of,"You really like her a lot, don't you?" I was so naive back then that I didn't realize exactly what this woman was trying to insinuate so, stupid me said, "Yes."
After the conversation she escorted me to her door. Near the door, she looked me in the eye and told me "Don't be a stranger" with this woman and to contact her. Again, I didn't look deeper into this at the time. Looking back on the event, I get the feeling that she was trying to hook me up with this woman. Keep in mind that I was either 14-16, a minor, at the time and Possum had to have been in her late-forties. When I got home, I felt so guilty about what happened, as if I had done something taboo. I told my mom about the email, but I neglected to tell her about exactly what went down, as I knew that it would cause trouble. She thought that it was weird and advised me against emailing this woman.
Early last year, I returned to the church for a short visit and Badger took me aside and coyly asked if I had contacted Possum. I said "No." She seemed disappointed and urged me not to wait around and keep her hanging.
I am an adult now and recently, I thought it might be a nice idea to email Possum. I would love to catch up with her on things. We had so much in common that I think it would be a huge missed opportunity to not get to know each other better. Professionally speaking, I have been thinking about becoming a botanist and I think that I could learn a lot from her. I worry what Badger might have told her about me. I worry if she'll think that I want to date her, not that I'm not open to the idea, but I'm mainly interested in keeping things platonic between us. Is it normal?