Lesbian in a past life
After years of struggling with my sexuality, I finally know why I am somewhat attracted to girls. I say somewhat because while yes I had a few girl crushes; I've never been sexually attracted to one. "You could be romantically attracted to girls", or "you could be bi" some would say. Well that could've been a reason, although this is why it isn't.
1. I've been attracted by men both romantically and sexually more often than women. I have a fiance who is a guy nonetheless.
2. Every time I see 2 girls in love it gives me 2 feelings
A.the obvious is the warmish feeling whenever seeing a happy couple.
B.(Which is the real reason) I get a sense of nostalgia; not in the sense of rexperiencing feelings of a past crush oh no. Instead when I say experience nostalgia, I mean feeling and seeing (mentally) a different timeline. The mental images I get are that from a foggy Victorian like era. It's a strange feeling that somehow comforts me in different aspects. Not to mention I had a vivid dream of meeting a love interest (who was a girl) at a park.