Lack of sex drive
I was once engaged at 19 to a girl I dated since I was 18 and we broke up at 20. Part of the problem was moving into a new appartment gave me Anxiety. The anxiety led me to drink more and have sex less. I was diagnosed with Generalized anxiety when I was 15. After taking medication and Cognative therapy I broke out of the cycle of anxiety and regained playing sports and pleasing girls sexualy in high school and hanging out with friends. Then when I met my Ex I really fell in love with her and wanted to marry her I asked her she said Yes and I still had no anxiety we lived with our parents sex was fantastic - when we moved into our appartment I had panic attacks and high anxiety I told her that This was just a phase and I needed sometime to get over it an insured her that it wasnt her at all it was me CUS IT REALLY WAS - she decided that She wanted to take a brake becuase I was drinking more having less sex and always seemed stressed, all this happened because of anxiety. Not her or lack of interest in her. She said she wanted to keep the appartment. I became agitated and fought with her never physically just back and fourth. I moved back home and it took me a couple months to recover from the anxiety and panic. She has since moved on got married and had a Child. I now have lost the interest in trying hard to impress girls and save up and do the right things and even lost my desire to have kids because the failure made me feel less like a man. It also makes me feel that if my high anxiety or panic attacks come back that any woman i fall in love with will give up on me. I would never give up on a person I loved no matter what. I have since learned many ways to vent my anxiety with out using alcohol and have never used drugs - yet the Threat of failing as a man and The threat of a woman giving up on me LOOM over my head and Its come to the point where I don even pursue sex from women I find incredibly physically attractive!!! - anybody with any feedback would be greatly appreciated.