Knock on wood.

I have very little control over my thoughts. Whenever I'm given the opportunity to think, I am bombarded with every horrible thing I could possibly think of. Often these are worst case scenario things (ex, something horrifically bad happening to me, a loved one, a pet, a child, the world, etc...).

Every time I have these thoughts I need to knock on wood. It started out as an occasional thing, but now it has become so frequent that it interferes with my daily life. Sometimes I feel compelled to knock on wood even when I haven't actually thought of anythign bad, almost as though I was cancelling out some "subconscious" thought.

Just before I go to sleep, when I have these kind of thoughts the most frequently, I have to reach over and knock on the wooden floor to cancel them out. But every time I do that, my body "wakes up" from the sudden movement and it takes a while to get tired again. This has caused me to stay up as late as 5 in the morning.

I have tried telling myself to break the cycle and stop knocking on wood, but I cannot let myself for fear that my knocking really does have some influence on whether or not these fantasies will come true. I know it's irrational, but my mind won't let em take the chance.

And by the way, as I was writing this I knocked on wood several times.

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  • kellstar

    OCD, see a doctor, they can help u stop

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    • hotmama50

      good advice!

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  • If these things are vivd enough write them down it might make for a bestselling book

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  • cookiegirl

    dont let your mind control you, if you cant break that cycle on your own seek help

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  • RoseIsabella

    Mighty Mighty Bosstones "The Impression That I Get"

    Have you ever been close to tragedy
    Or been close to folks who have?
    Have you ever felt a pain so powerful
    So heavy you collapse?

    No? Well...
    I never had to KNOCK ON WOOD
    But I know someone who has
    Which makes me wonder if I could
    It makes me wonder if
    I never had to KNOCK ON WOOD
    And I'm glad I haven't yet
    Because I'm sure it isn't good
    That's the impression that I get.

    Have you ever had the odds stacked up so high
    You need a strength most don't possess?
    Or has it ever come down to do or die
    You've got to rise above the rest?

    No? Well...
    I never had to KNOCK ON WOOD
    But I know someone who has
    Which makes me wonder if I could
    It makes me wonder if
    I never had to knock on wood
    And I'm glad I haven't yet
    Because I'm sure it isn't good
    That's the impression that I get.

    I'm not a coward,
    I've just never been tested
    I'd like to think that if I was,
    I would pass
    Look at the tested and think there but for the grace go on
    I might be a coward,
    I'm afraid of what I might find out.

    I've never had to KNOCK ON WOOD
    But I know someone who has
    Which makes me wonder if I could
    It makes me wonder if
    I've never had to KNOCK ON WOOD
    And I'm glad i haven't yet
    Because I'm sure it isn't good
    That's the impression that I get.

    Never had to, I better KNOCK ON WOOD...
    Cause I know someone who has
    Which makes wonder if I could
    It makes me wonder if I

    Never had to, I better KNOCK ON WOOD...
    Cause I'm sure it isn't good
    Am I'm glad I havn't yet...

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  • speciall

    I find that normal! I'm kinda like that. and if you wanna break the habit, don't let your mind control you and stay away from the bad thoughts even though it may be hard.

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  • You have a severe case of OCD. This can be solved with medication.

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  • jud1123

    There's an app for that! Lol

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  • grizzlybear

    I'm the exact same way. I panic if I don't knock on wood.

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  • FlyingSheilds

    Imagine rather than think. It'll clear your head.

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