Just makes me wanna rage and or die

dude, shit happens, tomorrow comes, and it doesn't won't matter; eventually.

you gotta move on, you're gonna make a lot of mistakes and all you gotta do is learn from them so it's all about experience. you've got a lot of experience bro, chill out.

Lol. That's perfectly normal. This actually made me feel good. :P

A lot of people have anxiety when it comes to the past. The best thing to do it to move on with the life you are leading now and not to dwell in the past.

Laugh it off, and think to yourself 'who cares' and focus on the present. Be happy :)

I do the exact same thing. I dig up all my embarrassing moments and mull over them until I'm in agony. Ugh, I hate it.

I have the same problem

No way, no way are you alone. I have those thoughts too, about embarassing things I've done that, when recalled, just make me burn with anger and shame. I too make audible noises or sometimes massage my temples as if that will make the memory go away.

I feel your pain.

Man sometimes i feel the same way

me too, it's like the only things I can remember are the parts where I've acted like a weirdo

The experiences in your past that make you feel embarrassed, dread, fearful of what people would think if they knew of what you've done, are very important and necessary for your emotional growth. These events, the ones that stab your mind like a hot poker are part of what makes up your individual personality. You must cherish them and come to peace with them. Do this by talking about them to close friends, turn them into funny stories that is all.

forgive yourself.
i used to agonise over a lot of things too, and most of the extremely embarrassing things were when i was growing up. but over time the anguish at the thought of them grows less... you forgive yourself. and those same memories have so little emotional weight now, as i'm not beating myself up about them anymore.
even newer embarrassments don't have the kind of long burn that the old ones did.

dude welcome to my life. but seriously those screwups are a part of you like it or not. I see no reason to feel ashamed about it. we are human. I always reflect and wonder what in the world was I thinking. all you can do is laugh and move on.

dude i'm sure a lot of people have the same problems with their past....

hold onn i just rage smashed my keyboardd

do u have a.d.d or something

your normal. and forget about the past. you did what you thought was right at the time

Thank you for posting this. I'm very happy to hear I'm not alone in my ackward moods. Thanks to everyone who replied. Sometimes when I think about something I said while I was drunk, my head feels like it's going to explod. Now I don't feel so bad. Just human.

You have to try and not think about the situations so much. I've heard visualizing removing the memory from your brain helps. Like thinking your removing the memory from your mind physically, like a file on the computer helps. Or if it's a particularly rage inducing or painful memory, you can imagine your burning it or punching it or whatever you feel will releive your frustration or pain at what happened.

StrangeDuckDude what you said, reminds me of the movie Brain Candy by Kids in the Hall. The idea was a company developed a drug, that made everyone happy and feel as if it was always a perfect 70 degrees. Well what happened is, people were trapped inside their favorite memory and it would replay over and over and they no longer were able to function or live life. It was surprisingly insightful and somewhat disturbing, for a film by people who tend to joke about a lot of stuff.

I have the same problem, it is so annoying. But I do things to relax and forget about them like reading or listening to music, you should try to do something that you like and makes you forget that horrible feelings

omg yeah i really hate that.. even when im in a slightly happy or neutral mood and i remember something like that i feel sad or angry

I think it's normal to have a few memories that make you absolutely cringe. I know I have mine. It's just the pain of embarrassment. You just gotta live with it.

everyone remebers bad things from the past i do so its normal i would say

You have a little rage in you but nothing out of the ordinary. If you seriously hurt or killed someone than my answer would be different.

looks like me and you could pass as twins

yep. I definitely do this too- and the memories seem to come up at the worst times. I will find myself reliving those moments and I totally detach from reality, so that I might blurt out something or make a weird noise...it's messed up. I am going to try a therapist, maybe there is an inner problem, or a memory that was so bad I blocked it. Hopefully a therapist will release that and I can move on. ==To everyone that said "move on" or "forget it"- easier said than done.

It's normal, I have that a lot, but I don't really show it physically

Pshhh... If I had a quarter (b/c nickels aren't worth jack anymore!!)for every time I've made a blunder I'd be so f*cken rich bitch.

I'm 28 now, but I still remember the most embarrassing blunders from when I was much much younger. Shit still happens to me every once in a while but that's rare, why?? Cause I prefer not to hang out as much. I would light up a doobie, grab my tap shoes, pump up some ill tunes, prepare some healthy munchies for later and start tapping, it will NEVER help me foget the past and I'll live with them memories till the day I die, but... while high on delicious haze I can reflect on the reasons for my being embarrassed and then try to reconcile the issues with logic and closure (at least I learned that lesson then and not now that I'm older)

Cheers!

Hm,you sould probably work on this...while it seems to be "normal", it's not exactly healthy. Spirituality, especially Zen or any that encourage practicing meditation, would probably help you to live in the present instead of the past (or at least help you to better deal with your trips to the past). :)

Oh yes its normal !

Yep. I think about it while I'm falling asleep and it makes me just want to go back and time. It really eats at you. :|

Aaauuuugghhh I sometimes get absolutely mental thinking about stupid shit I've done :|

And then I can't stop thinking about those things and I work myself up into agitation. I start blushing all over. Then I can't relax and keep thinking 'fuck, I'm so fucking stupid, why did I do those things'.

Mostly they're social situations or situations where other people MIGHT hear about them and then secretly ridicule me or gossip. Blaarghhh. Really fucking stupid :|

Ugh, people tell me to move on too.
I actually try to respond to the reaction in the past aloud to try to make up for it in the present.
This sounds kinda like yours.
Really no advice to give, just saying you're not alone with that.

I've had my share of embarrassing moments. When I think about it, it makes me want to hit my head on a wall or something...

LOL! I am exactly the same way! It jut makes me want to..rage or die, like you said. Argh thinking about stupid stuff like that really grinds my gears like nothing else.

I have incidents like that that make me rage too.

Sounds like we have the same kind of memory...

It sounds like your living in the past. although i remember nearly every aspect of my life which is annoying, like the times i cried when i was 3 and i still remember the reasons i did, not all of which were stupid, i have friends and a busy life and i try to keep up with it. with rugby, friends, school, my own life, my girlfriend, and doing drugs (not saying its not prescribed) and stuff i barely have time to think. I do remember stupid shit i do but i tell myself it was dumb, i dont know them anymore, why would it matter. you sound like the kind of person that wouldnt want to look like a fool infront of strangers. who the **** cares!

I think maybe you might have ADHD but then again I'm not an expert either. I remember things that people have done to me that were very wrong and it angers me and I wish I could forget the past and move on but unfortunately that is not going to happen. These experiences mold you into who you are and can either make you a better person or break you. So you have to learn how to control these memories or they will be the death of you.

Dude, I do exactly the same thing, sometimes I even cry about it.

Every time you dwell on a situation like that you relive that moment in time over and over and over and over again. Imagine getting horribly burned why the hell would you want to relive being on fire? Same thing for bad expierences DO NOT DWELL. What you need to do is go back to that expierence and relive it to its fullest and examine everything in it that made you feel bad and let yourself understand that what is in the past is in the past and can not and will not hurt you.

same wit me bro

I wouldn't be so neurotic. We get caught up in our identities too much. Just remember you aren't really the same person you were in the past.Just focus on improving now, and don't worry that much about the past or future. Learn from past mistakes and be what you wanna be.

I have a long list of these memories, too. I many times try to imagine the story differently with myself coming out on top. I have read that it is a symptom of narcissism. I think also that direspore above has the right idea in forgiving ourselves. Just so you know, I would not think you are a loser from your above stories.

The story is somthin like lookin' in a mirror

Yeah i have this to and im a dude.
This is called embarrassment lol.
I remember many moments like these, like a couple years ago me and my ex girlfriend were talking and my dog puked..

some time when i see a baby i have an over whelming urge to cruch it. Some people arms make me want to bite them.

I know how you feel. I am afraid to let go of the memories because I feel like I deserve to mull it over and be ashamed of myself. I have ADHD as well.

Don't be so hard on yourself. That is just your mind trying to torture you. You just have to remember that it's all in the past, and tell your mind that it doesn't need o keep replaying those scenarios over and over again. In all honesty, nobody really cares about the mistakes you've made in the past. No need to dwell on them.

its hard to remember good things our brain automatically saved our mistakes so we can learn from them but the good memories fade....did you really do those things? i feel really bad for you.so yeah ur normal that stuff happens to me too

i hate my life. if i had one superpower it would be time control. i would fix all of my mistakes, and then i would live a stress free life. i totally agree with you.

i'm the exact same way.

Yea, my friend and I have this.
I'm not sure if yours is the same, but maybe you could look it up online and see if you have the same symptoms.

Social Anxiety.
You think everything you do around others is just awkward, and you want to just KILL YOURSELF when something embarrassing happens, which you think is ALL the time.

me tooooo! i just try not to think about that stuff. or do any of it again...

well you either have balls for suicide or you don't. I personally would rather die by my own hands, choosing when to die, than to let fate take its course and die at the hands of another.

that being said you may have a case of turrets if you often have no filter of words. if it only happens rarely, that's normal. I think all in all you just need to get laid, it'll cheer ya up.

fake post is fake

Well I do the same sometimes aswell but to do it everyday isn't really normal

learn to forget

Some say that after death, you will have only your memories. You will live and re-live these
memories forever, like a stuck vinyl LP. If your
memories are largely pleasant, that is "heaven";
in your case (if you have a lot of bad memories)you will essentially be in eternal hell when you die, your own hell as it were.

hahaha kneed him in the balls. nice one