It it normal to feel powerless?
I feel like I'm powerless,weak,alone and I cannot really change anything.And people will always be taking advantage of me because of it.I hate my life and I hate everyone who directly and indirectly is causing me to hate it.But I can't do anything,because I'm powerless.By powerless I mean:
uncapable of influencing people.If they do something I don't want them to do,I can't even tell them to stop. I feel like everyone else is running my life and the worst way possible.Everyone pretty much ignores what I have to say and what I'm feeling.I feel like I became a little kid again.And it sucks.
It's like everyone is tring to make me feel small,useless,stupid,and defenseless.As if somebody is constantly predicting my every move.And I'm slowly losing my will to talk.I spent most of my time in silence,collecting the few useless thoughts still in my mind.Randomly.And everything has no meaning at all.All that matters is what other people think.Everyone thinks I got insane but I think the same about them.
Is this normal?