Is this reaction "normal"?

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is it normal to lose all my confidence in myself after a horrible accident. i feel like a failure as a mother, wife, and functional person in general.
a little over a year ago, i was driving with my children, it was dark and wet out, a mother and daughter were crossing the rode..i hit and killed the mother. i pulled over and ran towards her. her brother approached me before i got there and assaulted and dragged me to his sister, i'm pretty sure he wouldve killed me if the police hadnt shown up when they did. my children saw all of this from our vehicle. i was investigated and was not found at fault.
how does a person recover from taking an innocent life, a mother away from her daughter?? i've been in therapy since, been diagnosed with ptsd, some days i'm ok and think i'll be able to move on(i have to for my kids) but lately i feel totally lost. why does this feeling come and go and will i ever be over it?
i dont trust myself to make any choices. i've fallen for my best friend..who is married also. he makes me feel like i deserve happiness. i have no intention of leaving my husband.my husband refused to be apart of any of this. he was actually cruel to me instead of supportive. i needed help taking care of my kids and he wouldnt come home. (he lived outta state for work. but couldve visited if he chose to) i am a total mess. any comments or answers to these questions?

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  • BatZion
    14 years ago

    aww, im so sorry u made me cry :*(. listne to me and only believe: YOU ARE A GOOD PERSON IT WAS ACCIDENT YOU WILL BE OKAY!! REMEMBER WHO LUVS YOU: ur kids, ur god (idk if your religious sorry), ur family and friends. ITS OK!!!

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  • mtnw
    14 years ago

    oh my god, you poor woman. for sure, you have ptsd, also survivors guilt.

    i strongly urge you to say the things you said above to your therapist. also, if you aren't on meds, i strongly urge you in that direction.

    only time, with the "right" type of thinking is going to get you through this. no doubt, it will take a long time.

    in the meantime, you deserve to live a good life, and your children deserve a well adjusted mother.

    the brother understandly just went nuts. just try to forget about that.

    it is unfortunate that your husband does not realize the severity of your situation.

    your memories of that unfortunate event will always be with you, but how you deal with them is what's going to get you through this.

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  • cal1swwag
    13 years ago

    Dizzam!! If you are religious the best thing to always do is trust in The lord. I've been through EXTREMELY life changing experiences and just knew everything was going to be fine. In time everything will get better. Maybe the message in this incident is to appreciate your family! Where you burdened by motherhood or anything?

    Anyways I will pray for you

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  • mermaid
    14 years ago

    That's right... it wasn't your fault.
    You do have to move on with your life, for your children, because they ARE still here, and they're your responsibility.
    I think a therapist and some medication could possibly help. Maybe find a friend you can confide in.

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