Is this okay??

My name is Barry. About 8 years ago I found myself sometimes fantasizing about giving another guy a blowjob. I did not think that much about it at first, but the desire grew. Five years ago, I decided to try giving a real blowjob. So, I discovered that I am good at it and really enjoyed it. I starting giving them regularly to many different guys, feeling sorta like a slut. I am bi, so I also dated some girls. As soon as a girl found out about my love for sucking cock, they did not want to date anymore. However, some of the girls were intrigued by my cock slurping addiction and would help set me up with guys they knew. After about three years of frequent cock slurping, I had a very clear reputation for being a cock-whore. I decided to try to stop, even though I was loving it, because I did not want to never date a girl again. After about one month of no cock-sucking, I was like having withdrawal and intensely craving a cock in my mouth. It is so embarrassing to even write this. I mean, are other people literally addicted to sucking cocks besides me??? I even had a few dreams where I would wake up because I was gagging on cock in my dream. I was so disappointed that it was a dream. Anyhoo, I decided to go back to my favorite hobby and suck as much cock as possible. And that is what I have been doing for the past 2 years. I absolutely love it. All of my friends say that I suck too much cock, but I don't think so. I am truly happiest when I have a cock in my mouth.