Is this friendship normal?
I've been friends with this girl all throughout my high school years and we've always been really close, since the first day we met. Lately I've been trying to understand if this is a healthy friendship or not.
I am the only close friend she has, and she hangs out with me almost everyday. She even comes by my house unannounced and expects me to hang out. I comply, because I feel bad to say no. Usually she gets really obsessive about boyfriends, so when she has one, I don't see much of her. When we hang out she has intense mood swings, which I have to juggle over my own mood swings (which are pretty intense: I take medication for them) and sometimes even talk out of suicide.
She is also an intense financial strain on me, because I always pay and lend her money, which is never returned. She alternates telling me I'm really hot or she puts me down by saying I'm fat and ugly. I know it's not true, because I know I am attractive but when she tells me I am a bad person I believe it and feel like I don't deserve to be alive.
But other times she tells me how I'm her only friend and she loves me, and how close we are and I feel guilty of even doubting her. So, what do you guys think? Normal or not?