Is this depression?

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When i was growing up i always got bullied in school about my size and looks and even at home. some family members would tease me about my size but i would just put on a fake smile and act like it didn't bother me but really i was crying in side. i never really had any friends just family and i never really celebrated my birthday or anything like that ever since i was like 7 or 8 because we're poor and of course like i said, i didnt have any friends that wouldve came to say hello on my birthday i'm 21 now.. but anyway my confidence level is rock bottom, i have low self esteem, every girl ive ever liked or asked out always shot me down and my depression got to the point where i didnt go to school often and i couldnt even keep up anymore witch caused me to drop out at 9th grade.. i cant even keep a job that long because all i want to do is just stay home and sleep. all i do is just fantasize about being that cool guy everyone wants to hang out with and now im in my fantasy world more than the real world. i even fantasize about having a girlfriend but i can never make out her face and its haunting me.. i just keep dreaming about random scenarios that will never come true.. and i don't want to be like this anymore i want to be active and go out and make new friends but i am anti-social and dont know how to talk to people unless its about music.. whats a good way to take back control of my life again? and does anyone else go through this? is this normal? HELP!!

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  • shuggy-chan
    8 years ago

    No! This is Sparta!!!!!!!

    And bro thats part is life at least for me. Like neuro said, being self-aware is a good start. But posivivity doesnt come naturally to some people. Its too easy to see the bad. And your at that age where lots of people self-absorbed. I can tell you that things will get better you just need to pull that Finding Nemo and just keep swimming.

    You just worry about you, a GF and all that will come. And most of those people that have all those "friends" will find out that alot of those people are only friends of convenience

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  • cocknballs
    8 years ago

    start lifting weights

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    • LittleGirlDiabolicalySodomized
      8 years ago

      Totally agree. You are a wise man.

      If a man is poor there is always calisthenics, no excuses for being a weakling.

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      • bucho's_butt
        8 years ago

        Am I correct in assuming that the other screen name is no more? What a pity. I don't know why the mods still bother. But this has been talked about over and over again, so whatever.

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  • NeuroNeptunian
    8 years ago

    Yeah, it sounds like depression.
    It's pretty obvious that your upbringing caused at least 60% if it.

    However...
    Depression is a mood disorder. Meaning that your mood and your life don't line up. Growing up in an abusive environment will make most people react in a negative manner. That is not mental illness, that is human nature. There's probably nothing really wrong with you. Your depression is most likely a natural result of your upbringing.

    Seek help, being aware means you're already on the right track.

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  • Steven2.0
    8 years ago

    It seems you have depression. It's not the end of the world though. I've been depressed for my entire life and I'm still struggling to feel any hint of happiness in our awful world. I still have a successful career, lots of money and a high IQ, so don't let it control your life.

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    • Charli.m's_Messy_Period
      8 years ago

      Doesn't your C string cheer you up?

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      • Steven2.0
        8 years ago

        What the fuck are you talking about?

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        • Charli.m's_Messy_Period
          8 years ago

          I thought you liked suntanning nude in the parks of London.

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    • Digge
      8 years ago

      Maybe your problem is that you are making the world awful with your arrogance.

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  • bucho's_butt
    8 years ago

    The poster above is correct. But I'm against lifting weights. Too many people go down the wrong path with weight training, gain nothing, and then end up even more hopeless. Check out "Convict Conditioning." Bridge push-ups changed my life. You can download the book from kickasstorrents.

    Any workout you do should be a compound lift. That's the way to start gaining true strength. Confidence and a relief of your depression will follow.

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  • Faggot_Asses
    8 years ago

    Honestly if you try developing a knack for bullshiting people it goes a long way. Women love guys who bullshit them and other guys will always choose hanging out with guys who have an easy time talking to women.

    Doesn't make sense right? Well neither does treating women badly and still getting laid, it still works far more than actually being a "nice guy".

    It was mentioned above, but lifting weights does make a difference. If you look good it makes sense that you would also feel good and that translates to confidence when dealing with women.

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  • icanteven
    8 years ago

    yeah plenty of other people go through this, im sorry you feel like this.
    is your anti-social behavior because of anxiety?
    i think the best thing for you to do, is to go get a job.
    that way you're socialising, so that would be a good start, might be hard at first but you'll get the hang of it.

    socialising and stuff will open you up to meet people (including girls) so you could try.

    Be friends with girls, if you start to like one, ask her out on a date, if she says no, its not the end of the world, their are billions of girls.

    you could have depression, but not saying you do for sure because you might just be having depressive episodes.

    you cant sit around and hope for stuff to get better, you actually have to help yourself to get anyway.

    you can message me anytime if you need anything.

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  • Thisisnotmyrealname
    8 years ago

    The response is amazing on this i dont know how to reply to you people.

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