Is this craziness normal?
Around 10 years ago I fell in love with this girl in school, I was always to shy to ask her out, then I had to leave the country. I lost contact with all my firends and worst of all, her. For five years I've been thinking about her and I can't get her out of my head.
One month ago, I found her on Facebook and I'm now in contact with her again. She was very happy to see me again on MSN and two weeks ago I finally mustered the courage tell her how much I love her, that I've loved her all this time and how bad I'm hurting.
She was very honest with me, she said that this summer (in her gap year) she is going to France for 6 months to work, then she was going to travel around Europe for a couple months, but now, she has decided to come and stay with me for those 2 months, this made me extremely happy. She told me that she knows that she could love me and that when she tells me this, she wants it to be real, from her heart and when she knows she can be there for me. She says that she doesn't want to get into a long distance relationship because she can't, she wants to give "us" a chance at it for when she comes to me. She also said that when she comes to me, something will definately happen between us, this made me very happy.
She then said that until then she is going to continue living her life. Recently she told me that she met a guy and that it could be serious, this shattered me even though she told me that she's going to continue living her life. Nothing has really changed about how we talk to each other but I feel pretty hopeless.
I think about her all the time, I need her so very bad. I just want to be with her, hold her tight and hold her hand, I'm going crazy and I don't know what to do. I'm very confused right now.
Does anybody have any advice for me? Do you think I have a chance with her?