Is this considered rape?
My boyfriend and I had just broken up, my first real love, and I was devastated. I wanted to get with another guy for a rebound. So one night, all of my friends and I went out and I went with this guy to his room. I was really really drunk. I consented to kiss but then he asked me if I wanted to have sex. I asked him if he had a condom and he said no. After that, I told him that I did not want to have sex with him. He kept tugging at my pants and I continually said no. We started to kiss again until my top was off. He took my pants off and asked me if I wanted to have sex again for the third time. I told him that I didn't want to have sex with him if he didn't have a condom. He listed reasons why I shouldn't be scared to do it without protection. My drunk self agreed, still doubting, and felt very pressured. As we started, I did not want to continue. I remember multiple times I said "No. I don't want to do this anymore." in the middle of it. Still, he kept saying it was fine and kept doing it. I remember I kept saying no and even started to cry. I tried to scream but I couldn't get it out and his hand was also covering my mouth. My friend comes over to try and open the door but he goes and locks it. At this point, I am a mess and can't even get up. He continues until my friend finds a way to get in, she takes me, and as soon as I got out I start to ball my eyes out. Ever since the day, it hasn't left my mind and whenever I try to think of it as rape I try to convince myself that it's not and I'm just self-centered or something.