Is this a normal way to feel?

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Lately I’ve been in a very strange mood. It’s boredom, but on like an extremely unhealthy level. Things I enjoy I only enjoy mildly, and the only time I’m ever REALLY excited is when I’m doing something away from home (and I’m at home most of the time).

I feel mostly indifferent to my family. My mother is the only one I can say I truly love all the time, and even she annoys me sometimes with her outdated way of thinking. There’s points where I feel like I truly hate some of them, or at least just prefer not to be around them.

But what drives me crazy the most is probably my obsession with the afterlife, whether it exists or not, and it really bothers me either way. I just cannot comprehend the idea of not existing, but this life I live is already so boring and repetitive. There’s times where I even think to myself that maybe I should just kill myself to solve the mystery.

I want to do more with my life, but I worry that the dumb things I’ve said online will hinder me. I really can’t remember the last time I felt REALLY happy. I’ve been happy, even excited, but in recent years there’s usually something gnawing at the back of my head. I don’t know what it is but hopefully you guys at least understand it.

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  • palehorse
    4 years ago

    Sounds like depression.

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  • panter411
    4 years ago

    No, not normal.

    Legit get help, when I slowly lost all the satisfaction in the things I used to like, I ended up fucking myself over big time.
    It could be a lot of things, maybe its just stress (you can be stressed over the wierdest things), or maybe its something much worse.

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  • RoseIsabella
    4 years ago

    Existential teen angst?

    Don't kill yourself! Find something interesting, and healthy to do to occupy your spare time, and get some help for your depression.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      4 years ago

      I’m 20, but I’ve felt this way on and off throughout my teen years, and even a bit in my tween years.

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      • RoseIsabella
        4 years ago

        Do you ever have symptoms of dissociation, or derealization?

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          4 years ago

          I looked both those up, and I’m really not sure. If I have they’re not very noticeable.

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          • RoseIsabella
            4 years ago

            Sometimes if I think too much about that existential stuff it will freak me out.

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  • donteatstuffoffthesidewalk
    4 years ago

    fuck the afterlife live the presentlife

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  • Doesnormalmatter
    4 years ago

    Move out, get on your own. It really helps you mentally if your family is bugging you. Trust me, I've been there.

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  • [Old Memory]
    4 years ago

    You are the only one who can change thing for the better for you.

    How old are you? Maybe it's time for you to stop living off mum and start your own life. Move out

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  • soleyman_the_magnificent
    4 years ago

    The quotidian human existence can be kind of a monotonous grind. I get it. Honestly, there's peace to be found in somewhat embracing the repetitive routine. I've found even within that routine, there's enough randomness to keep things interesting if you look for it.

    Not to sound overly judgey, but how old are you? As others have suggested, maybe it's time to move out and do life on your own. Doesn't necessarily make the day-to-day less of a grind, but it does force you to learn new life skills and coping mechanisms.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      4 years ago

      No offense, but that first sentence has a lot of big words and it kinda seems like you’re trying to sound smart.

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      • soleyman_the_magnificent
        4 years ago

        You're certainly entitled to your opinion. Sometimes I find it's easier to use "big" words to express my thoughts succinctly rather than mash together a bunch of simpler ones to get my point across. Just trying to be helpful.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      4 years ago

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      • soleyman_the_magnificent
        4 years ago

        Give yourself some grace. You've got a long life ahead of you (hopefully). Whether or not you personally believe Jesus is Lord and Savior, or just a wise man/teacher, I think his example of showing grace and forgiveness toward others is a good place to start. Hopefully this will give you more peace.

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