Is this a normal reaction to spankings as a kid?
I hear people argue for spanking kids saying it didn't negatively effect them, they showed respect, and they didn't hate or fear their parents.
It didn't work that way on me. Looking back I wasn't spanked excessively or any different than average but it did cause me trust issues with my parents. I always felt uncomfortable and distant towards them and have anger and resentment I do not fully understand.
Punishment never fully worked on me either. I would just try harder to not get caught. Today I have some severe anger problems and I respond to punishment with an obsession of revenge. I do not know if they are to blame or if I would have turned out like this anyway.