Is there something wrong with me and my emotions?!
Hello. 0.0 I just want to know if you all think this is normal for me to act like this. I know I should see a doctor but I can't right now! :P I don't want a diagnosis just opinions. Thanks!
Okay sooo, throughout the day my moods will change. I can't seem to go to sleep until at least 2AM every night for the past month. When I wake up it's reaallly hard to get up. I feel depressed and sick, like a magnet stuck to the bed. After I get up though I'm jumping around my apartment dancing and chasing my dog. I'll catch her and laugh and run to the bedroom and throw her (gently) onto the bed and tickle attack her. Then I'll start growling and scare her. She runs off and gets a toy and I'll wrestle for it. I'll growl and put my face up to hers and start biting her fur and poking her nose to make her angry. Anyways where was I?
I just get really excited for no reason. I sort of feel extremely energetic yet still tired/depressed in the background. Hard to explain. Sometimes I'm like this but irritable instead of happy. Like I'll think my dog is staring at me funny or someone says something to me while I'm reading. I'll snap in an instant and blow up.
For example with my dog. I'll feel her looking at me and I'll get angry and say, "WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT!!? Raaawwr!!" IDK, I just get agitated over weird things, and it seems like when something that would piss most people off happens I don't even care and laugh. For example, I went to Walmart with my boyfriend and we went to the 20 items or less line. The girl was being a tard and so was the manager. It literally took her 15 minutes to ring out this lady with the same item. She was really slow and pissing everyone in line off. My boyfriend was about to leave but I just stood there laughing and cracking jokes and acting giddy, but after we finally got out of there we were going to pick up Wendy's but they were only accepting cash, which we didn't have, and I snapped!...
Other times I can't get out of bed and feel emotionless, staring at the ceiling for hours. Sometimes I get this idea that I want to do a million things and I can do anything I want! Other times I feel like I'm useless and can't do anything and don't have the motivation to. When I do feel like doing a bunch of things I end up doing nothing because I can't focus. I'm sit there reading and I'll get stuck on a sentence. I'll read the sentence, forget what I read, reread it over and over and over yet it doesn't register and I'll have to spend 2 minutes really trying to focus on understanding what the sentence said...then I';; start thinking about doing something else...and then I'll forget altogether what I was doing and move on. Does that make sense? Like I'll be telling someone something and all of a sudden my mind goes blank. I feel like I'm think of a million things but at the same time nothing at all and they have to tell me what I was saying for me to remember.