Is society sick, or am i?
I just can't shake off this feeling that society; humanity; the world, is fundamentally sick. And I feel trapped within it.
I think I've done everything in my life so far, that I'm supposed to have done, and perhaps more. I graduated school, with decent grades, passed my car exam, got a car, a good secure job working (in an area I love, with people I admire), a mortgage and found an amazing, intelligent and beautiful girl to whom I'm compatible with and engaged to be married to in less than a year. I'm not rolling in cash, but according to the status quo, and in comparison to a lot of people around me, I've pretty much made it in life at the grand young age of 25. However I don't believe these are the most important factors within life, but I added this information since they seem to be the deciding factors within the narrative of happiness told to us when growing up; Work, Home, Love, Hope = Happiness.
More personally, I try to engage myself with other forms of progressive interests. I workout daily, practice meditation, discuss and debate political issues, and volunteer my time to those less fortunate, and generally try to be a good friend to anyone that comes into my life who is need. I do to social gatherings with many friends, where I really do have fun and enjoy those times. I read (a lot) on a variety of different topics, Physics, advanced mathematics, mechanics, computing, biology, finance, the economy, philosophy and religion, food and cooking... Really everything. I think I might do this because I'm in search for meaning behind the very feeling I find myself questioning. The one I'm talking right now.
Is it me that is sick, or is it in fact society that is in fact sick? I just have so many seemingly small questions, that I myself with a relative perspective can answer quite easily, but when combined paint such an ugly picture of the world, that makes me feel so sick.
Why are there houses left empty that nobody can afford or want, when there are equal numbers of homeless people in need?
In fact why do we even have to buy houses? Other than the effort of those who built the houses, and the effort it took to get the resources?
I'll say it, why is profit even a thing? If you think about it, your profit, is someone else's debt. Is that really how we want to live? indebted...
Why do we promote selfishness and greed within business? Why does the founder of a business profit so disproportionately more than the workers who keep it going?
Who really needs a billion (insert currency here) anyway?
Why are companies being let off paying billions in taxes, using loop holes which were probably created for those purposes?
Especially when that money, could mean people is actual need could have a better life?
Hell... Money doesn't even exist. It only represents power/control over resources anyway.
Yet it is used to enslave us by those who have the most of it.
Resources and knowledge should be shared with all living humans, and distributed to those most in need, shouldn't it?
How are more taxes really going to solve climate change? If that is even a thing humans have caused to begin with.
Why are media corporations spinning stories from such cruel narratives?
If we have to have capitalism, can't it be governed better? More transparently?
Do we really need to start wars for the sake of deciding which few humans get to control certain, oil or gas? / (insert natural resource here)
In fact, why are spending so much time and effort as a species producing weaponry, to kill each other with anyway? Surely this would be better spent elsewhere?
And I know it'd be so easy for anyone to say "well that is how it is, get used to it," I've even said this to myself many times. But I always ask myself further "well why is it that way? this isn't the best way to do things". Likewise it would be so easy to say "well go live off the grid away from society," again that thought has crossed my mind many times. But that's not what I want, and wouldn't fix anything. Surely yes we should be more in touch with the nature, and have a better sense of community and togetherness, but we can do that while using modern technology without killing each other and screwing each other over, right?
It just feels to me that everything we're told when growing up, and the core values that are ingrained into society are a loads of tosh... I've done everything I'm supposed to do, and sure in isolated incidents I am quite happy and comfortable. When I socialise, or drive my car, or go to the gym, or eat a meal, I genuinely feel happy, and also lucky to be alive. But there is something in the back of my mind, that knows that all my "successes" in life, are more about luck than anything else.... Life if I were to have been born in a country that the people in power in my country wanted the oil from beneath the earth of, I'd probably have grown up in a war zone. Or if I happened to be homosexual I'd be whipped or in-prisoned. Or if I ever did something heroic that people in power disliked, I'd be assassinated. or I could have been born into a place where I'd have to prostitute myself just to buy enough food to eat.... and these are people's live today, not just hypothetical piece of my imagination.
I just don't even know how to get rid of these feelings inside of me. I better whenever I do good deeds towards others, or when I see someone else doing good deeds. But its not fully, compensatory.
I'd appreciate any thoughts on this.
Many thanks