Is my life really bad?

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THIS IS LONG BUT I NEED TO KNOW IF MY LIFE IS AS REALLY BAD AS I THINK IT IS

I was curious to know i my life is as bad as i think it is..
Due to personal reasons i'm missing some bad parts out so this is my life
I'm 24, no job, barely any money, i live most days in bed i don't go out i have a few friends (not many but barely see them)
I'm pretty (yes i am this isn't in my head, been told enough) but no guy seems to want me or wants to have a relationship with me, i've had boyfriends in the past but lately only loser unattractive guys are attracted t me, no one seems to want to settle down with me or gets attached to me just wants to use me for sex.. (i don't do this because i don't have ONS)
i have never had a orgasm before never been able to dont know if its mental or physical i think its both
I have eye floaters covering my vision really bad to the point my sight is badly affeted
I have really bad health i had epilepsy for 10 years non-stop i couldn't do anything so missed out on school and normal experiences most kids have..
I don't seem to be able to make connections with anyone rarely and if i do its never mutural
my ex fiance stole from me and broke my heart he proposed then a month after left me for someone else with no warning and didn't care about what he did to me, just moved on happy, has had no karma
I have chronic insomnia i nearly died because i went weeks with no sleep and sleeping tablets damaged my brain because i was taking them and they were not working this was 5 years ago now and my brain still feels damaged from the lack of sleep and drugs, it never went back to normal.
i just feel like i'm wasting my life and don't know how to change anything
i've been diagnosed with Aspergers but have had zero help in life for this, my family put me down and think i'm a loser no support from them, i struggle with talking to people as i'm really shy but no one would know i had autism unless i tell them since i act completely normal..
There is more but these are things i can think of right now, is my life really that bad or could it be much worse? i've thought of suicide before but i don't want to i just want to find someone and be happy but anything i look forward to or want in life never ever happens, its like its there to taunt me..

can someone tell me what they think?

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  • LornaMae
    5 years ago

    Oh, wow, there's a lot to respond to in your post. I'll try and break it down to make my response clear. Since your post is somewhat confusing I suspect my reply will also end up being a bit disjointed... but I'll try.

    First - no job, little money, live in bed - why is it you don't have a job at 24? Before reading about all the health problems you mentioned that's what I wondered. Are you not fit to work at all or is it depression that keeps you in bed? Have you ever had a job?

    Second, being pretty has little to do with being able to find and keep a partner, your personality and ability to interact with someone plays a much bigger part in that. Your outlook on life, to be quite frank, seems severely pessimistic and that can be very off-putting. The fact that the fiancé you had wasn't good to you might just be a matter of bad luck. It happens to the best of us, so I don't see that as an issue in itself.

    As for not having had an orgasm - you don't mention if you have or have not tried DIY or if you're just expecting it to happen during any sexual encounter you might have. In that case, I highly encourage you to try it to properly assess your ability to have one.

    One thing that caught my attention is that you say the things you wish would happen just don't happen. Now I ask, are you doing anything to make them happen or are you just daydreaming in your bed waiting for them to magically become reality?

    It seems you listed most of the bad things you could think of, but I wonder, is there also a list of good things?

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