Is it weird that i have an obsession with my teacher?

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Okay so I have this one teacher at my school who is pretty much the nicest person in the entire world. She's funny, quick witted and just amazingly kind. She's been there for me through a lot in my life, including a massive existential crisis break down type thing that we really don't need to get into. Point is she's just about my favourite person in the entire world, and says that she's always there for me if I need her. The thing is I think I'm just too obsessed. Like I create our conversations in my mind and how they would play out, and I will go to different buildings in my school just hoping that we might bump into each other, 'coincidentally'. I'm constantly looking around just incase she is in the near proximity, just to smile at her. I am not attracted to her at all, I just want her to love me like a daughter, or something like that.
But I'm scared that she'll get annoyed at me, or think I'm wasting her time, so I'm trying to distance myself from her, not smile at her so much, but all it's doing is making me put myself in her way, purposefully only half smiling and making it obvious that I'm trying to avoid eye-contact and stepping away, in the hope that she'll notice and talk to me about what's wrong.
It's like she only cares about the students who have behavioural issues, because then when she becomes THEIR favourite teacher it's like she's a saint. I'm generally well behaved, I just leave lessons sometimes without explanation.

Anyway, is it weird how obsessed I am? Like sometimes I just go on her Facebook page, look at her photos and wish she was my mother. She'd be a better mother figure than the one I have. She's just so perfect, and I'm actually good at the subject she teaches... Do you think she thinks I'm a freak? More importantly, am I for feeling like this?

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  • thegypsysailor
    8 years ago

    Weird, no. Childish, definitely!

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  • college
    8 years ago

    I'd say it's normal. You'd be surprised at the number of posts talking about a similar obsession with a teacher. I myself have had great admiration for a number of teachers in my past.

    However, it's important to understand that someone's professional life doesn't necessarily reflect their personal life. She may be well put together at your school, but a wreck at home (I'm being slightly hyperbolic). All I'm saying is that I don't doubt she makes a wonderful teacher and mentor, but she may not make the best mother figure. That being said, you know her better than I do, and I don't think she thinks you're a freak. I think most teachers have learned to accept and even expect social awkwardness from young people.

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