Is it weird that i hate my mom but i love her at the same time?

So I really hate my mom for a lot of reasons. She gets mad at me a lot for no reason and yells at me for not cleaning and being lazy. My sisters don't do anything and they get credit for the stuff I do around the house. When we argue she's always right if I defend myself I am wrong and she tells me to shut up. I don't get a chance to say what I want and when I do she dosent listen and yells at me and says she's right. After we argue she acts like nothing happened right after like 10 or 20 mins and try's to be nice to me. Which gets me really pissed because she won't say sorry. I am also pansexual and she got really mad when she found out like 4 months ago and says it disgusting. That she will kick me out if I date a girl but she dosent know what pansexual is. When I explain to her what it is she just yells at me and calls me a lesbian which hurts sometimes. It was 6 months ago when I stopped cutting and when she found out I got into a lot of trouble and she told my dad. They both were very angry and said it was my friends fault they influenced me to do it and I couldn't have any. But what they didn't know was I only started cutting my self was because of my mom. She made me upset a lot and would cause me so much stress so I started to cut I would cry a lot almost everyday. It's hard when I speak about it and I get really emotional when I do I feel like my mom hates me. When I watch a movie or a tv show with someone doing self harm so insults them and it makes me feel really uncomfortable and upset. I try to ignore it but it's really hard when there's someone constantly saying mean things to you and they don't know it's hurting you.she never believes me either if I say something cool or something that I like which is really weird things she would say that's not true that impossible they would die if they did that. She would also say if I was stupid for likening the weird things. But I still love her because she's my mom all I ever wanted was for her to love me back and show me that love. I always craved for the love a mother and the care and that she would help me and listen to my problems. I don't think that will be happening anytime soon. Is that normal to hate and love your mom at the same time?