Is it weird that i despise my mum?

My parents have always despised and neglected me. When I was in the womb she smoked and when I was little, maybe two or three she and my dad would leave me alone for extended periods of time. Just the other day I was sitting down on the couch at their house and she was nagging me ( I can't remember what it was about). She whacked me with a newspaper and my father took a slap shot at me. I'm ashamed (not really) to say I kicked my mum and punched my dad then made my escape... Is it normal to hate my parents this much that I can't take it and lash out violently even after several years of attempted conversation about the current domestic position? I remember when I was 11-12 I got shut in a wardrobe and hit with coat hangers.. I don't think this helps my situation much but it's a brief idea as to what position I'm currently in.