Is it really normal that i am always hurt

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Dear members,
What all you going to read might sounds so normal and I have decided to speak all my heart out.
Please read sincerely.
Four years back on social networking site I made a friend who wasn't complete stranger but my batch mate from same college. Slowly we became friends and one day he proposed me for marriage. And while chatting I fell in love. Before I said yes he told his family,college friends and even my family through my sister.I found his feelings true.our family communicated to each other and it was all ho in fine.Then After 8 months he just disappeared.He left me.He didn't said anything to me.
Meanwhile His brother used to support me that he'll come to u one day .
Since last three years of separation all I did was crying remembing him praying to God. And one day I Got a message that sooner he'll Be with me. And one very beautiful day we actually talked.I could not talk much all I was doing was imbibing his sound.his brother made us talk again.
We again started chatting but this time it was different.He wouldn't send me a message untill I do. I backed off since someone told me about his love interest in other girl.I was again hurt, a hell lot.
And again one day I Got a message from him saying his parents are ready for marriage.he told me that reason for leaving me. And then I ignored.
He and his parents created a hell lot nuisance for marriage.so I rejected. I really love him. I couldn't accept his relationship with other girl but can't stop myself to love him adore him. Even today he's my life.
Things have changed he makes statements like he never wanted to marry me.his parents are forcing him to marry me.He is having another love interest .I don't know how to deal with this.
I am living again in past I am crying.Even today I feel like I really want him and I wouldn't be able to live without him.what's this .is it love. And how long is it going to hurt me.is it for ever.

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  • Ellenna
    8 years ago

    He's not your lungs so of course you can live without him! This was a fantasy relationship: how can you love someone you've never met?

    You sound young and isolated: the first issue will resolve itself with time but you need to do something about the second one before you retreat totally into the unreal world of the internet.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      Yeah you are right! During all these years I lived in isolation. He was my classmate I didn't actually had a date ever with him. Even I could see me it used to make my day. Talking endless with him was a treat to me.

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      • Ellenna
        8 years ago

        It sounds as if he was in some sort of fantasy land too or else he's just changed his mind about what he wants and has moved on. This will not always hurt this much, I promise you.

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      • Anonymous Post Author
        8 years ago

        It was my first love. First man who came to my life and changed it. Everything seemed to Be so beautiful. Yes it was all fantasies.. thanks Ellena dear and everyone's thought has strengthened me. I am trying to push away mySelf from this hurt

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    • Arm0se
      8 years ago

      (Not the op) My first relationship was an online one. We still talk everyday and are planing to move in together in a few years. My cousin met his wife online and they've been together for a while. Online relationships can work if you stay committed.

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      • Ellenna
        8 years ago

        Of course they can, but statistically they're unlikely to do so

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        • Arm0se
          8 years ago

          I'm just saying you can love someone you've never really met :/

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  • thegypsysailor
    8 years ago

    There will be others for you to love and one day he will only be a dim memory.
    It always hurts to lose someone you love, but that hurt does fade away, in time, that I can assure you. Your life is not over, that I also can guaranty.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      Every body says that but not even a single minute goes when he's not in my thoughts.Please help me to fight against myself.

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  • yu-gi-ohChampion25
    8 years ago

    jealousy is flattering just dont lose your mind

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