Is it possible to be this crazy and completely alien as a man

I'm genuinely the weirdest person every. 22 year old male, 5''7, 170pds. I study things like the effect of psychedelics on the brain, the existence of a greater place, fascinated by the fact everything is everything, that time doesn't exist, that nothing is real. I recently smoked DMT while in Australia, and that completely f7cked things up even more.. as beautiful an experience as it was). I have depression too, and get these f&cking voices in my head, it's crazy. I write music, love cooking, love coffee, love learning about in dept topics, about the brain or universe. im also an insomniac. I've stopped talking to all my friends since I came home, as If I knew them but we'rent friends with them..yet? if that makes sense. sorry if my spelling is bad I'm pretty high and trying to eat pot noodle while typing. All the above have only started become the norm since I went to australia 9 months ago. before that, I was playing sports, had loads of friends, was seeing a girl on/off and was pretty much a completely different person, as in it honestly feels like I'm not the same person that left, completely. It's f7cked up, even my face has changed. I've always been bad in school, kicked out of 3, always been known to cause trouble when I was younger. But I'm now basically on a vengence against the world, not in a literal sense but metaphorically, it's like you see everything as fake and 'oh well, these are just stupid organizations why do they have power, I'm a human on a random planet in a galaxy full of millions of other planets 60 times our size. You don't see dogs putting on a tie and shirt and going to school for however many years then work in an office till there about to croak? Again don't take that statement literally, have enough intelligence to know the metaphorical meaning, as in-direct as it may be. So, I'm a 22 year old stoner loner who questions reality and life, assisted by a trillion different voices in my head. i'm f7cked aren't I? Better light a Jayleen, this could get nasty like nas.