Is it nornal to be straight but like a girl?
I consider myself a straight girl, but a few years ago I had the biggest crush on another girl in my theatre group. I'd never actually had a crush on a girl before, but it was the first time I had a crush on someone but could actually tell them comfortably and actually flirt comfortably with them. With boys there's a lot of anxiety involved.
It was also the first time it physically hurt to see a crush kiss someone else. I could feel my stomach drop the way it does in books, and I couldn't watch. I'd never felt that pain from a boy I liked.
I still like her and it still hurts to think about her, and when I see girls that remind me of her I feel weird.
Is it normal to feel like this about one girl, even though I find myself attracted to guys?
Does it mean I'm gay or bisexual? I've thought it over before, but none of it seems to make any sense to me.