Is it normal wanting to be controlled by a female demon?
I have this desire to be controlled by a female demon (aka "succubus") who will seduce me and hypnotize me through the power of suggestion to submit to her will and carry out her wishes. She will manipulate me to commit horrible acts and criminal offenses during my states of intense sexual arousal, for which I will be arrested and charged. And then when I am rotting in prison she will again return to haunt and torment my dreams and every waking moment. I will have the painful urge to commit suicide every day knowing that my life is out of my control and that I am hopeless in the face of a supernatural entity and malevolent presence, but she will always stop me, making me believe that my sole purpose for existence is to cause more atrocities and create more chaos.