Is it normal to wonder if i might be gay?

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*Haters welcome. If calling me a fag makes you feel better about your own sexuality, you're probably in more denial than I am. Please, mature readers only.*

Sometimes, like when watching porn or just masturbating via imagination, I really want to suck dick and eat cum, even imagining going to a gloryhole and sucking the dicks of random guys...

Sounds pretty gay/bi, right? The thing is that I think that the female body is gorgeous and beautiful, but the the male form is repulsive, especially regarding the neck up. Even a half-second shot of a guy's face in a porn is an instant turn-off for me. (But seeing his cock shoot cum is a turn-on.) I've had sex with two partners, both female. I've had two gay friends proposition me, but I didn't even think twice before saying no.

However, I have recently been experimenting while masturbating, and used a lubed-up condom to stick the neck of a wine bottle up my anus on two occasions. (I was under the influence of the wine.) Imagining the wine bottle as a cock and achieving orgasm so quickly deeply disturbs me, however enjoyable it was.

I want to someday have a long and happy marriage (to a woman!) and have two kids of my own, plus one or two adopted children. I have only dated the opposite sex and have no desire of changing that. But the gay desires I sometimes have bother me, and makes me question my own sexuality. I have no problem with homosexuality in other people, I'm pro-gay marriage etc, but I don't want to think of myself as gay or bi. Opinions, comments, advice welcome. Thank you.

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  • dappled
    12 years ago

    Would do these urges bother you? And why would you question your sexuality? If it's blurred, it's blurred. I've never understood people's need to get their sexuality printed off, laminated and then locked in a box forever and ever and ever.

    If your sexuality does change it doesn't suddenly mean you have to act differently. Your sexuality is part of you; you're not part of it. You seem to be letting these thoughts consume you when it's no different than what colour your hair is (which may also change over time).

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  • gregjm
    5 years ago

    Every guy goes through this, don't worry about it.

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  • UnabashedUser
    6 years ago

    As long as the wine bottle is over 18 and can keep its mouth shut don't worry about it. Stay away from sheep though -- you know how much they lie.

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    call me crazy, but I truly think you are possessed by demons/evil spirits. They got me a while back and I know how fucked up shit can get if you open the door to the spirit world and the demons get you. To get them out what you need to do is realize how they will fuck your life over forever and that you are NOT them. You are stronger than them

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  • wannabeincomedy
    12 years ago

    Sex does not define a relationship.
    Can you imagine wanting to kiss a man to hold him and have a warm happy loving tender relationship. If yes your gay/Bi

    if you just want to blow a dude then your like 30-34% of men

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  • Benny4Jesus
    12 years ago

    Romans 1:18-32
    Nature shows it plainly that homosexuality is not designed. Statistics show it plainly that homosexuality is not healthy. Homosexuals show it plainly that it is not beneficial to society.
    Wisdom shows us what is plain, the real problem is people want to do what they want to do, even when it is wrong. It's been going on since the beginning of time.
    The last verse here says that "they know the judgement of God." Everyone has been given a basic scale in the heart to measure right and wrong. Even if we were to "omit" homosexuality out of the equation, everyone would still be caught by their own words and found guilty of doing wrong. Doing good deeds do not erase the wrongs we have done, they only cover them up. The problem here is, heaven is heaven because everyone there is sin-free. The only hope for us all is to have our sins completely forgiven rather than covered up. And Jesus is the only One who can do this.

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    • hardonlife
      12 years ago

      1. Statistics may show it that homosexuality is not healthy, but Homosexuality is not any much worse then Heterosexuality in terms of health problems, so there is no difference at all.

      2. There are many animals created by "God" that take acts in homosexual intercourse, so clearly there is something natural here.

      3. People find homosexuality as a guilt because of people like you whom have been stuck in the dark ages. If I yell at kids that step on my lawn they will be scared of me, not of the act.

      4.Regardless of all of this figment of imaginations you have been typing down, Jesus can not do anything at all because he is dead (that's if he is ever existed, which I am afraid he didn't) But for the sake of the argument, if he could save you from your sins, then he would save himself from being dead, oh what is that? he died for OUR sins? Oh then it doesn't matter if we are homosexual or not. then every one will go to heaven!

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  • hardonlife
    12 years ago

    I am guessing you live in a not so gay/bi friendly community? So that's why you aren't much wanting to push the idea of being Gay or Bi? That is normal, it happens. But if you don't want to be Gay or Bi because, lets say, You think being Gay or Bi is not manly or so, then that is some form of being homophobic.

    Mind you, I think that gay sex is lot more manly then hetro sex. And Bi people are the most awesome people, IMO.

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    Normal. Period. Though I have never had homosexual fantasies myself, I know that I'm actually an oddball. Anyone who studied anything about human sexuality knows people fantasize and experiment with the same sex by nature.

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  • Tisgranum
    12 years ago

    It's not as much about fantasies as about what you do and/or really want to do in actuality. This may just be a phase anyway, but if it gets to the point where you feel the need of being with a man, then it gets a bit more serious. If it's only a little anal play and fantasizing, there's really no need to question anything.

    And then what's so bad about being bi and such things? It really isn't the end of world and doesn't mean you can't be happy with a good woman.

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