Is it normal to wish my pedophile ex would disappear?
Basically, my ex and the father of my children had a secret. Besides being a cheat, a liar, abusive, manipulative and very cruel, he was also a pedophile. A girl from before we met went to the police with a lot of evidence and he was put in jail. We weren't together at the time, but I was left with his stuff, his debts, his shame and two children to explain it all to. We had to move because people were being awful to my little children, aged 5 and 3 at the time, because of what their Dad turned out to be. It wasn't their fault! Wasn't my fault either- I didn't know! Recently another child very close confessed to also having been abused by him. I am sickened to my core.
I refuse to let him anywhere near the children, as far as I am concerned they are not safe anywhere near him. I know he was released from prison and lives near. I live in constant fear of seeing him in the street. I wish he would disappear- like, poof! Gone. Forever. Commit suicide even, like he always threatens to. Is it normal to wish such an extreme measure? I know he's a sicko, but am I sick if I want him to die? And never be a problem again?