Is it normal to wish my pedophile ex would disappear?

Basically, my ex and the father of my children had a secret. Besides being a cheat, a liar, abusive, manipulative and very cruel, he was also a pedophile. A girl from before we met went to the police with a lot of evidence and he was put in jail. We weren't together at the time, but I was left with his stuff, his debts, his shame and two children to explain it all to. We had to move because people were being awful to my little children, aged 5 and 3 at the time, because of what their Dad turned out to be. It wasn't their fault! Wasn't my fault either- I didn't know! Recently another child very close confessed to also having been abused by him. I am sickened to my core.
I refuse to let him anywhere near the children, as far as I am concerned they are not safe anywhere near him. I know he was released from prison and lives near. I live in constant fear of seeing him in the street. I wish he would disappear- like, poof! Gone. Forever. Commit suicide even, like he always threatens to. Is it normal to wish such an extreme measure? I know he's a sicko, but am I sick if I want him to die? And never be a problem again?

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87% Normal
Based on 62 votes (54 yes)
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Comments ( 5 )
  • handsignals

    I'd cut his dick off.

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  • Avant-Garde

    Report what your child told you to the police. Get your child a therapist.

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    • shuggy-chan

      it wasnt her children it was other children AG

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      • Avant-Garde

        But she said "my".

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  • dinz

    What your ex did was disgusting, violating the rights of an individual. I completely understand your feelings about wishing he was dead.

    But think of one thing, dead or alive won't erase the pain you, your family and the victims endured at the hand of this monster.

    What you should be is concentrating on yourself and your children. I'm not saying to forget what he has done, but to ensure that such a harsh lesson learnt from such a horrible incident you had no right to be in is not repeated on anyone.

    About the people who were awful to your children because of the actions of their Father are being ignorant of the fact that these children played no part.

    Have you tried speaking to victim support or speaking to his parol officer about your concerns about him living so close to you?

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