Is it normal to wish i was still being sexually abused by my step-dad?

Ever watch Oprah? It IS normal because kids - whether they can comprehend it or not- still know what feels good physically. Being touched feels good and it feels good to be loved.
Add that to the fact that this is a person that SHOULD be loving you, and you can easily be confused- ESPECIALLY at 11...
Mentally, logically, you know it's wrong, but that doesn't mean it didn't feel good.

The danger here is that you will be messed up for a really long time, get super fat, be single and unhappy all of your life unless you are being abused [treated badly by your significant other]. Reason is, you will subconsciously think you don't deserve good love, real love, a good life, or anything else.

The bastard has you turned around to think YOU did something to make him not love / want you anymore. Not true.

See a shrink, get reg. exercise, eat well, stay healthy, careful about drugs and alcohol.

DO NOT BECOME SELF DESTRUCTIVE, and keep an eye on him. Make sure he doesn't go after another little kid... take care of yourself.

P.S. TELL YOURSELF EVERYDAY- I AM BEAUTIFUL, I AM GOOD, I DESERVE A GREAT LIFE, I AM LOVABLE.

What the fuck? How is this normal?

It's alright. You probably are self inflicted because he isn't doing it anymore. There are most likely thoughts running through your head about you not being good enough for him to sexually abuse you anymore. My best bet is you don't want it anymore, but you just want that feeling that someone wants you as you. With my wish of luck, be careful.

no its fine he just fucked your head up a little and now all you think about is wanting to fuck him is that it

its like teaching a young pit-bull how to fight then once it gets bigger thats all it wants to do is fight other dogs because the owner taught it to the dog when the dog was young

It's ok ur just freaky naughty that's all, nothing wrong w that. No worries.

Hon, you are worth so much more than this. The affection be was giving you, however sick and twisted, was probably the only attention you got in that way. It doesn't mean you're unattractive or a bad person. You need to seek out some therapy and find a friend who will love you for who you are and not ask for anything in return. It might not happen right away, but you will find happiness.

You're normal, however..It's not normal for you to want that, for your sake..please, see a therapist, I had a similar thing happen to me when i was younger..I sought help, and now i'm fine..

You haven't told anyone?
You should see a therapist, tell SOMEONE. As much as you may think you aren't effected every day from what he did, you're probably mistaken...
I recently confided a molestation that happened over 10 years ago to me, and we're working on patching up my life. Things I thought were just my own problems, I am realizing, have stemmed from this single incident. My first advice is to tell someone.

It is not uncommon for victims of sexual violence to feel that way. So you are not alone. It is very normal to feel that way. If you told people about it, it might help you to deal with it. I haven't told my mother about my rape. Can't do it yet. But seeing a counselor can help you. For years i didn't deal with it i kept my rape quiet. But everytime i turned around something was reminding me of what happened. Dealing with it was the only way for me to lead a better life.

Actually, is is normal as you were so young when this happened. Its well-known that victims of sexual abuse as children often carry some 'feelings' for their abuser.

If you do not speak anymore then its not going to happen. And from the sounds of it, he dosn't want it too because you're an adult now.

What he did was sick though, you have to remember that, but don't blame yourself. Its probably quite hard to find somebody new in your situation, but when you do hopefully these feelings will subside.

Did you ever report him/tell your mum or anybody? I know it was a long time ago, but maybe you need to talk about it to somebody if you don't have closure (which it sounds like you really dont)

um no y would u want ur step da to have sex with u (since its not rape anymore since u like it.)

You know, This is how I think about it.

Maybe he thinks that if he does it to you now... you will expose him because you are older. But kids... when they are abused.. They never say anything. I learned this in Psychology, I'm majoring.

No offence, but I think you're wierd. I mean why would anyone wanna be sexually abused especially by their step dad? Thats just wrong, this could go on to be a court case if someone found out about it and if there was any evidence.
I think I'm right in saying that you probably need a boyfriend because of what you've mensioned.