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Ok, im a 17 year old guy...personally i dont think im gay, im not attracted to guys nor do i want to date one...but sometimes when im really horny i jerk off to gay porn, afterwards i feel disgusted with myself, then i watch lesbian porn to see if i still like it, i do of course, but i feel awful all night, i know its not normal, but maybe my hormones are to blame...
Don't expect it to change or go away anytime soon. I've been doing so since I was your age, 42 now, and the urge, and guilt are still here! I've gone to far to see if it was 'real' or not. Just talk to someone, but I can assure you, you're VERY normal.
You're at least in the early stages of Bisexuality. Enjoy your gay porn and remember that you don't have to feel you have to have a relationship or be attracted physically to another guy. If you're not gay, then it's just about the dick and the thought of sucking one. Instead of feeling disgusted by your thoughts, try to enjoy imaging what it would be like if you were the one giving the blowjob instead of the guy in the screen. Although I suspect you already have, and this is what excites you. If it is, then try to go FOR the flow yourself with another man.
Frankly, I think you ARE gay. When I began to understand my gay identity it started from gay porn in the moments of extra horny. And it was the same feeling of disgust. In the result after some years now I'm living with my bf for 1,5 years and very happy. Just be who you are and you will see how pleasurable it may be)