Is it normal to want to torture and murder people in your head?

I've come to accept that most people do fantasise about killing other people in their heads - their boss, an idiot driver, an annoying customer - which is usually motivated by anger and frustration. That's not what I'm talking about here.

I was wondering whether it was normal to derive pleasure (sexual or otherwise) out of the thought of torturing and/or murdering someone.

Since I was 8, I've been fantasising about torturing people, especially late at night. By the time I reached my mid teens, the urges became more frequent, it had escalated to both torture and murder. Usually my fantasies featured someone I knew; most common were people who I was infatuated with or people who I felt disempowered by. The fantasies could be described as targeted scenes from movies like Saw or other gore movies, which is strange because I hate watching gore.

Of course, I don't think I would ever attempt anything like my fantasies in real life, but when I watch documentaries about serial killers, school shootings and sexual predators, I can't help but empathise with them on a very personal level. I understand how it feels to have their urges and desires. Of course, I also feel empathy for the victims and their families and so forth.

So, is it normal? Does anyone else have these urges in their head? And even if it isn't a common thing, is it still relatively harmless, or am I completely psychopathic?

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  • RedCurlsAre

    Killing is pleasure, it signifies the part you'd love to let go, even the slightest

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  • normalish

    it seems normal to me, but it's better to not get so frequent about it.

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  • Monkeybutts

    No its not normal. I almost forgot what made me stop thinking those thoughts but now I remember. I think the last time I fantasized about killing somebody was a school bully who just would not leave me a lone. I cried a lot and let the thoughts of anger consume me the whole year and even switch classes and schools becuz of the person. But I came back 'cuz the school I switch to had even more bullies and so then I read a book about thoughts and it said: "you are what you think". If you constantly keep thinking a thought then it will one day manifest in your life. So I changed my thoughts and controled my anger. one day I read in the school papers that the person who kept bullying me got murder and was dead. Instead of feeling happy I cried and it was not worth it. You may think u want someone to die but really its not worth it. Since then I never really let people anger me to the point where I kill them in my head. I control my anger a lot better and control my thoughts 'cuz I don't want anger or crazy thoughts to control or consume my life.

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  • LordHawHaw

    I have those thoughts sometimes as well. It makes me scared of myself at times. I'm glad there are more people with this 'issue'

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  • TheObserver

    I have these urges as well. I understand it's a difficult compulsion to deal with and I have even planned murder as a child on two occasions. An outlet for me is killing insects. It's not as bad as humans, but it makes me calm down. You are far more moral than I am, it seems. Cling on to this morality: the only thing stopping me is the law, but you have another barrier to keep yourself in check with. Try and find someone to talk to: I have a pyromaniac friend that I talk to, which helps me understand my own feelings. I hope this helps. -TheObserver

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  • Emeryk

    I have these thoughts too alot and i think its pretty harmless since you dont wanna act out any of them.

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  • GoraIntoDesiGals

    I really want to torture a taleban or a salafist.

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  • lotuspetals

    Those feelings of disempowerment are what you should be paying attention to, since they seem to be what triggers the sadistic fantasies.

    Those people that belittled you in the past, or that you were infatuated with...instead of putting your focus on them, why not put it on yourself and your own empowerment, so you don't allow others that power over you?

    It's a much healthier route than the murder and torture one, even if those fantasies are never realized...and I certainly hope they never are.

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  • Trust me, it's a big let down and it never gets better.

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  • twinklesstar

    Well it's kind of normal to have some dark fantasise, the real problem is how much time those fantasise are in your head . If you only think of taking pleasure in torture and murder and only that ,well at some point I guess your goin g to be more prone to act on it. How much time do you feel those urge?

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  • Anime7

    Well, I've seen plenty of post on here about people who have thoughts of killing people in their head. To each one of these people I say the same thing; keep those urges in your head.

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    • Clockwork360

      Ya it's fun to think those but letting them out is allways a fun idea to entertain.

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      • Anime7

        If your fantasy is deadly then don't entertain it, don't increase the urge.

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