Is it normal to want to have a different life??

Ok This is my story...

My whole life has been one big drama after another, I grew up with deaf parents who had no idea how to be parents, aunts uncles cousins who turned there noses up at us coz we were mixed races and me and my brothers?? we had to teach our selfs.. i remember one time i was 4 or 5 and my big brother was 6 or 7 and i was starving i cried and cried and the only one who heard me was my brother,, he gave me coffee sugar tea bags water flour all types of different stuff he could find which he thought was ediable and he fed me it.. as i got older i grew up quick so i didnt have a childhood and at 19 i had a daughter so again my teenage years we gone,, Im now almost 25 and last weekend for the first time in a long time i went out to a club and for all of 10 minutes i enjoyed it than all of a sudden i looked around and saw all these young guys and girls and i felt old and sad and straight away i wished i was young and happy and normal.. I dont even know what normal is anymore... can anyone just tell me what normal is so at least i can try and be 'normal'

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Based on 39 votes (28 yes)
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  • snafu

    travel that will broaden your mind just get up and go you'll get there

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  • blaster

    I'm in two minds about life . I do know tho that if you don't like it you can change it. It'll be hard work but if we sit down and just work out what we want with our life and how to get it , in time we can, I did. I totally changed my life , took 5 yrs, a ton of persistence, got no idea and it's been really hard work but I did it. Another couple of years and I should - hopefully , be sitting so pretty but , only if all goes well.
    My second mind is that some people do just let things happen , go with the flow and for a lot of people I guess it does just happen. In a way I've always felt that working too hard at something is pushing it and so could well be your wrong path anyway.

    But , then they do say - do what you always do and you'll get what you've always got !

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  • LOL:)

    dude, just be who you want to be. You make your life happy, nothing else. If thats stuff makes you feel old then find something else that doesn't

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  • dude yeah this is sad but alot of people have had this its normal dont worry it could be worse i mean iv had a really bad life i mean my own dad burnt down my house when i was a kid my mum dated a drug dealer without knowing he was one and then he tried to kill us my uncle was a pedofile which i found out after i had been looked after by him my family is connected to tam mcgraw (a crime boss) so i cant go into certain areas without the chance of being murdered and quite abit more but not only that people say i have changed and theres something wrong with me i feel like i am normal but they still think i have something wrong with me mentaly and thats without them knowing the things i have done i almost ended about 1000 lifes in my college by dipping cloth into science chemicals and wraping it around the gas pipe that goes around the school and setting the cloth alight my little brother and my friends were all at that school and for a while i didnt care and then i had to rush to get someone after i had a change of heart so they could put it out before it blew this isnt the only crimes iv done and iv had the criminal investigatiopn department on me twice and they havent caught me and iv even confessed to these things to people and no one believes me so i cant go to anyone to tell me am i good or am i bad i have to find it out on my own which i dont feel i ever will. so basicly just be greatful that your life is better than others that you only feel sad at being older and not other more serious problems.

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  • lol_bamf

    Happiness is not some random thing that falls out of the sky and hits you in head.

    You have to work for happiness. Look at Buddhism. The Four Noble Truths are 1) Life is Suffering, 2) Suffering arises from Desire, 3) Suffering ends when Desire ends, 4) Desire ends with the Eightfold path. The Eightfold Path is eight steps that describe the steps needed to make yourself happier.

    Of course, desire is impossible to eradicate, so suffering never truly ends. But the path does help and offers a lot of self reflecting to make you happier.

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  • 8Serene8

    You make your life happy. You can't "find" happiness.

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