Is it normal to want to go anorexic... again

I may be completely talking out of my ass, because I've never known anyone with anorexia, but I'm fairly certain it's not something that lasts for three weeks. Anorexia nervosa is a chronic mental condition. Anorexic people don't usually talk about it and some may not even realize they have a problem. Again, I could be totally wrong so anyone feel free to correct me.

I think you're just going about this diet thing all wrong. You say you don't want to go to any "freaky" doctor but....you're starving yourself, and that is an extremely dangerous and stupid thing to do (not that you ARE stupid). So you're not exactly in the position to dismiss seeing one of these doctors.

You know what foods are healthy for you and what foods aren't. You will achieve much better results if you EAT. You want to look good - anorexia does not make you look good. Eventually you will lose your hair!

Do the right thing. If you feel like you can't control your impulse to starve yourself - see a doctor. No one here can change your self image and that's what your problem is. Anorexia isn't a joke, or a trend, or a healthy way to diet. It's a serious, deadly disease.

My mum was anorexic/bulimic at one point, and she put me on a crazy diet and shit, and encouraged me to throw up after I ate.

I'm not gonna lie, I did lose quite a bit of weight back then with the crazy diet, but after all the dieting I couldn't get enough of eating, and after a while I got fat.

But then I decided to take a better approach myself, without any crazy mother-diets xD since then I've lost 20 kilos permanently - something my mums diet could never do (I didn't lose even close to that before). The trick is self control - both ways. Now and again I catch myself getting into old ways, either eating too much or starving myself, but I nip it in the bud. You see, starving yourself works at first, but after the first week or so you find it doing the reverse; your metabolism changes to fit starvation and eating even a biscuit will inexplicably put on a kilo. So you starve more and more, and your body doesn't lose much weight, your skin turns pale and you just don't look hot.

What you have to do is train both your body and metabolism over a long length of time. Eat less than your friends maybe, but don't starve. Close your eyes when you eat, concentrate on the taste and don't let yourself feel guilty. Don't think about how disgusting you think it looks. You should only feel pride when you've eaten enough of something yummy to sustain you, when you haven't binged or turned it away completely. Once you do that, you've mastered self control and moderation. At first it'll all feel wrong, but you have to train yourself.

I didn't lose weight by dieting, I lost it by changing my lifestyle.

my mum died of that so it isent worth it trust me :( x

I don't think so. It might seem comforting to you because you've been used to it. But the damage it can do to your organs and your whole body can be devastating. I'm sure you'd agree that the outcome of a possible coma and organ failure and even death is scary. These are the risks you'd be taking if you were to resort to Anorexia. And not only would you be hurting yourself, you'd be hurting your family and friends too, emotionally. I don't mean to nag though. I'm simply being informative, so that you know all the facts. If you feel like you might be slipping back to your old ways, don't hide it. Talk to someone you know or your doctor and they'll do all they can to help you get through this.

I can KINDA relate. I've been battling anorexia for YEARS. It first happened when I was younger, like 15. It was the same as you - a few weeks, then people noticed, etc, etc, etc. After that I still thought I was fat, but I never really did starve myself.

Well last year, I really actually developed a problem with Anorexia. I started eating less and less, since I wanted to lose weight for my wedding. I ended up losing 20 pounds, and I was extatic! I looked awesome in my dress, even though people were thinking I was looking too thin.

So the wedding came and went, and I was soooo addicted to losing weight!!! I was working out, taking diet pills, and rarely eating. I lost a total of 30 pounds. People were getting really worried about me, especially when they could see my ribs sticking out, along with my spine.

The whole time, I thought it was hot, and I wanted to lose more weight! Well then I started to get sick, and I was losing my mind. I started looking up videos/stories/photos of other Anorexics. It was SCARY.

So I got help, and I started eating again... and gained weight. Since then, I have gained 17 pounds.

Here's the kicker. Everyone thinks I look "great" right now, but when I look in the mirror or try on clothes, I see/feel nothing but a fat cow. It sucks. I know I'm not "fat" but I can't help but think about how I would love to lose weight again.

So now my old thoughts are coming back. I NEED to lose weight!!!

See, it's a never-ending circle. At least it is for me anyway. I'll try not too get too carried away this time. All I want is to lose 10 of the 17 pounds I gained back.

Good luck to you. It's not easy. If it gets bad, PLEASE talk to someone about it - a doctor, friend, family member, etc. The consequences can be deadly :(

NO. You are suffering from the sad disease of anorexia. I repeat, you are suffering from the DISEASE of anorexia. You are AFFLICTED with a disease, and have urges to do things which are NOT NORMAL. Please get help before you inadvertently ruin your health.

http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/find-help-support

please take care of yourself. There is no shame in getting help.

I've been trying to go back to thinnest for quite awhile now. I know it not healthy and I'm scared of letting my family know and I don't want to have to tell my doctor. I especially, don't want to be forced into recovery. I suppose It's normal to want to go back to it...

google "mucusless diet healing system" educate yourself

Don't focus so much on outer appearance learn to love yourself from the inside out.

i think im fat, but i gues iv got a big build i dunno. i try to lose weight anyway. i eat only 1 bowl of breakfast one small lunch and normal tea. and only drink water. =] i go to gym 3 days of the week too =D

Jen has made some very good points and you should take her advice seriously.
If you already have a trim figure, just eat a sensible diet to maintain it.
Your body NEEDS fuel!
You will look much better in a bikini with a healthy trim body than a true anorexic does. They look very ugly with their unhealthily bony bodies and gaunt, sad faces.
If you think that you may be heading this way, then please get proper help before you regret it.
Best wishes.

Don't go overboard with it.Good rule of thumb:waist has to be smaller than hip diameter by two inches

ahh, no dont do it. if your alredy skinny then no point. it a fact that 85%% of males prefer a fatter girl than a skinny girl, i read about it somewhere :)