Is it normal to want to get hurt

I wouldn't say that this is abnormal, the pleasure/pain dichotomy is such a huge part of our everyday lives. I'd say that a little healthy curiosity is fine, so long as you are not putting yourself in danger.

Perhaps it is attention that you seek? Or a pure passion/emotion?

For several years now, my feelings have been relatively muted- starting right around the time my aunt was not faring well in her battle with cancer.

I think my mind subconsciously did it to protect myself from both the grief of losing my aunt, my mother's grief, as well as the "crappy family dynamic", to put it nicely.

Even though my feelings are not as muted anymore, I still am relatively emotionally un-affected by things like I should. Yet, I know I often should show SOME response, least people think something's wrong with me. However, it feels fake and disgusting- which alienates me from people.

Ask yourself how would you feel if those things were to happen to you. What would they grant you that you feel you are missing? This should provide guidance. Then, once you reflect on your motivation, don't seek danger. Instead, seek help. :) A kind person, a willing ear or shoulder, a counselor or professional, to help you uncover those feelings and satisfy those desires in a safe way. *hugs*

Do not hurt yourself for attention, for all you know a little accident you want to have the attention for a day, could be a serious injury and last for a lifetime. Please do not do this. Pain is not nice, end of.

I feel the same way. Just recently, i was watching the doctor's show on TV, House, and i found myself wishing that i was the one in the hospital. Just because in there, the people pay so much attention to you. Right?

When I was young I loved going to the hospital. It was warm, clean and safe. I would really look forward to something bad happening so that I could end up there.
Maybe that's not the reason you like getting hurt though, I'm just sharing a memory.

Don't get scared of the people that are saying about mental illnesses and all that. I know exactly how you feel.

Sometimes when I'm watching something on TV like that, I think of myself in that situation. It's almost a form of jealousy, and it really gets to me, but don't worry, it is normal. Either that or we are both strange!

When I was younger I wanted to break my arm but at the same time I didn't I just wanted to know what it would be like but idc anymore haha

Have u been denied attention in the past? You really need to seek help for this