Is it normal to want to expose myself to deadly stuff?
I get urges to consume poisonous things and expose myself to harmful things. The urges are very strong and I get a lot of satisfaction and great relief once I get to do what I wanted. I have a new urge to get into toxic waste and to play with radioactive materials. I know this is a really bad idea and could kill me but it's like "oh well"...the desire to do it overrides the risk so much that it's not even a consideration. I know it's not normal to have these urges and to take such risks as this...but what do you think is wrong with me?