Is it normal to want to escape into my own world?
I am currently going through a slightly angsty period where I'm beginning to hate everything about this stupid reality more and more; everything in the spectrum from creepy attention whores on Facebook to brainwashed religious countries at war. Every day feels exactly the same now. When 2014 comes along, there will be almost nothing new to look forward to because almost everything that humanity wanted to accomplish has been accomplished and then duplicated ad nauseum.
At the moment, I just wish I could escape into my own personal world. An ideal world full of fantastical, dreamlike elements, where exciting events occur often, where different cultures are celebrated and not compared, and where technology is used in moderation. Fantasy fiction and adventure video games make me envy the lives their characters lead. I know it sounds like I'm childishly complaining, but it really makes me depressed sometimes. As a musician, I always had dreams of publishing great new albums for the world, but now I fear that what I create will go to waste because it's probably been done before, because there is only one dimension - this one.
I feel trapped in this reality. I certainly don't want to take my life or anything like that, but I feel evermore saddened that at some point, I'm going to have to force myself to get a grip and move on in life, doomed, just like everyone else, to witness the world's downfall as technology becomes increasingly more boring (unless Japan starts selling the world robot butlers) and various countries around the world continue to fued over trivial matters. If only I could fall asleep forever and live in a fresh, exciting new world beyond this one...