Is it normal to want to drink for these reasons?

Is it normal that I have been thinking non stop every night for a month about going for drinks?

Allright so as of late I have been having my worst college semester. I don't enjoy my program of studies. I have no friends with similar ideologies to mine in anyway. My family has been adding their unnecessary 2 cents constantly and really bringing down my self worth. I'm just feeling alone and depressed in general.

So I have not had a drink in 2 years. I drank here and there at the odd party in highschool and first year in college yet never enjoyed my "buzz". I usually felt like a belligerent idiot who was talking way too much about nothing. This would result in me usually leaving partys to walk alone so I don't make a fool of myself. I've been told it was because I never knew my limits and would mix wrong drinks and what not ( true I am very rookie when it comes to drinks, drink beer, shots, vodka, Malibu, I thought the point was to get drunk as fast and hard as possible lol).

So is it normal to want to completely reverse my thought pattern because these thoughts of despair? I used to absolutely hate drinking and it's associations until lately. I am also keen on ensuring that it doesent become a release or I depend on it but I'm not an addictive personality type. I just want to let loose and maybe meet some new people ( perhaps a cuts girl), listen to some good music, so I can have SOME minuscule joy of letting loose every once in a while. Normal? Right or wrong intention?

And should I just do it alone since I don't enjoy my friends company as of late too?

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48% Normal
Based on 31 votes (15 yes)
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Comments ( 3 )
  • DannyKanes

    Drinking because your upset is not a good thing, being alcohol is a depressant

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  • Don't do it, if you start it now you'll have a serious drinking problem in a few years.

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  • 343Boy

    You want to depend on it but you don't want to depend on it?

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