Is it normal to want to dissappear cuz my life is full of pain?

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Im only 19 yrs old and I have seen, been through, learned..ect way to much and to bad for being so young. I have been through so much pain since I was 2yrs that I dont think I can take it anymore. I've lost 2 brothers, one a shot to the head, the other died in his sleep. Igrew up in the hood.. some call it the ghetto. Been surronded by drugs.. I've known every thing and I mean EVERYTHING. I have tried some (vics, perks, oxy, pot, liquar) But I know of it all. I was malested by my uncle when I was 2 1/2. He was never arrested cuz it was my dads brother and he didnt want that. Now my uncle is living for free in one of my dads houses right next door. My family is so reckless, they call me names such as bitch, cunt, peice of shit.. and a lot worse. I dropped outta school cuz of probation for truency. I am very smart but when i tried to go back I had no help. My family didnt want to leave the house. Well basically everyday I wake up wishing that I never would again, and every night I go to sleep crying and praying that I would die in some freak accident. Is it normal to hate myself and my life soo much.. to be alive anymore cuz of it?

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  • 1000yrVampireKing
    11 years ago

    First off your parents are fucked up for letting him move next door, and not trying to protect you. Second if you are old enough try and move out or try and find work. They have shelters I am sure they would let you stay in for awhile till you get enough money to move out.

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  • Echoes
    13 years ago

    I respect you from being mature enough to understand how bad the environment you're in and what that might lead you to. Hats off to you, my lady.

    You're 19, 19 means old enough to move out, get a job, have your own place to live, and GO BACK TO SCHOOL.

    You've been through hell, even that hell has a positive side, you're smarter, tougher and can handle any problem.
    Use all the shit that you've been through in the past to make a better future for yourself.

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  • Ribbit.
    13 years ago

    Well it's normal after all you've been through, I pray for you man, it's not your fault. Don't hate yourself. Love yourself.

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