Is it normal to want to die to unravel the mysteries of death?
Ok, to give you some background, I am heavily depressed, and also often feel lonely and worthless, but I feel that dying will give me some value, because at least when I die I'll be able to try to help unravel the mysteries of death, naturally, we all want to know what happens when we die, it's an age old question, personally, I believe in God, the Afterlife, ghosts etc.
Basically, I wish to know what lies on the other side, and since I'm no expert ghost hunter, the only way I can get real answers will be when I'm dead, maybe then I can cross from the Land of the Dead back to the living world and share my knowledge with the living.
Is this normal?