Is it normal to want to die because physical pain
I am a 19 almost 20 next month I am a female not married no kids and I have a so called chronic pain problem in my back, knees, and neck and doctors can't find out why I have these problems, I have cut myself several times because I am so sick of the pain.. I have tried speaking to doctors who specialize in pain and mental health team... but cant get anyone to understand what my life actually feels like, I have a hard time getting out of bed, I am not over weight I am 5'8 weigh 130 lbs its just being in constant pain has really got me down my boyfriend dumped me around the same time i have been having all these pain problems and its like he doesn't even care. I would like to die to get rid of the pain but my parents keep stopping me or my therapist finds out how I am feeling and sends me away. are these feelings normal or am I just over reacting.