Is it normal to want to control life?

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My whole life I have been going with the flow. If people wanted to get drunk, or smoke, even just have sex I would without a care in the world. I am 20 years old and for some reason I feel the urge to stop the flow and plot everything out. Every move I make has to be plotted. I even named the five children I promised I would have pushed out by age 32. Its gotten so bad that my career choice honestly has everything to do with me planning my family, my spousal years, and time I will spend volunteering when the kids are older. I have to know exactly where everything will lead in every moment, in everyday. Even now I am planning out what time I will go to the gym, how much time I will spend washing my car after, and how long I will spend typing this very journal entry. I have to control everything and everyone involved in my life. Is this normal? Remember I am only 20 and already I have developed this need for power.

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Based on 42 votes (27 yes)
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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    As Floydzcloud said " Expectations = Disappointments".

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    • carterjm4
      12 years ago

      Omg. Hell yes it does. That is the perfect way to sum it up. I hate when people warm me up then let me down. I always keep a vacant spot in my heart. I don't think its a good thing though.

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