Is it normal to want to be eaten by people?

My whole life, since I was little I've always felt I was born the wrong specie. I can only describe it as being similar to people who felt they were suppose to be the opposite sex, only mine is just insane, and i don't know what to do. Ok so, not only do I feel like I was suppose to be born another specie, but I feel very strongly I was meant to be born as an animal that is eaten by humans (like a pig, cow, chicken etc) I always felt and believed that I am lower on the food chain than other people. The desire to be eaten is overwhelming. I have trouble dealing with it. It keeps me up at night and makes me depressed everyday. I feel like I'm not serving my purpose, which is to be kept as livestock and one day cooked and eaten as a meal for people or a person. It's gotten to the point where I've actually looked up places in the world where cannibals live, in hopes to travel there to get eaten, with no luck. I know that's crazy. I don't know what to do anymore. I just wish I could be magically turned into a farm animal and serve my purpose. I actually envy the victims of cannibals. I'm so lost. I just had to talk about it somewhere. Anyone relate or have advice or anything?