Is it normal to want to be depressed

I am a very happy person and I am not trying to complain but my life is really messed up. For some reason a few minutes after I cry, I start laughing like nothing ever happened. That bothers me because I want to be depressed and I want to look at that negative side of life but I can't. I knew people who have killed themselves and I want to be able to get to their level of sadness and I wish all the good in my life would go away.
IIN?

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  • dappled

    <sigh>

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    • bronte_91

      I know right?

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      • dappled

        I know. I read the post this morning and genuinely sighed. Then I wondered how you explain something like this to someone who'll never truly know. Then I sighed again. It was the best answer I had, so it's what I typed.

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  • FocoUS

    I don't think you're abnormal for thinking this. I think you're just curious about depression because of your friends. My best friend growing up had depression. She contemplated suicide after she saw a bird fly into a window. This made no sense to me. But I wanted it to because I wanted to understand my friend.

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    • ImMe

      Yes I agree... I have often wished I could understand where some of my friends and family members were coming from; maybe if I did I could be there for them in a better way

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  • squirrelgirl

    Actually, everyone who has ever experienced depression - myself included - envies you. If you really did become depressed, you'd wish you could feel happiness again.

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  • tori

    What's the matter with your thinking? True depression is horrible. I know this because I have it. I used to want to drive my car on the freeway and smash it into a sound wall. This depression and PTSD comes and kicks your butt. Please don't wish such a thing on yourself. Be awesome in your shining light.

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  • Cheese123

    I hate you. You just want to be noticed and feel deep and special. Well you know what, fuck you. Go to hell. My friend wants to kill himaelf right now, and he's hanging on by a single thread to life. I get it, I do. I want to feel deep and have profoundly sad thoughts. Well be careful what you wish for.

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  • beastie

    You don't want depression - but you may well want attention?

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  • You really, really, REALLY, do not want depression. Maybe you think it makes you cool or 'unique' or something (I say maybe because that may not be the case at all with you). You are probably curious to how it feels, and that is very understandable. But depression isn't something you want to experience. At all. Depression is when you feel there is no escape from the pit of despair you live in. Everything is pointless because you feel there is no point in trying. "Why bother?" Is how you feel. There is a way out, there always, always is, but people need help in seeing the light; seeing how to get out of the rut, because it can always get better, even if it's through therapy or medication.

    So seriously, you don't want it. And if you do, and you get it, you will wish you never did.

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  • blacksheep13

    You should excersise and focus on getting healthy. Working out should help in balancing out your chemical imbalance in your brain.

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  • AngAnders112

    I can understand this to an extent ... some people want to experience a broken heart
    so they can really know how wonderful love is, or to be flat broke so they can appreciate the value of a dollar. I guess it depends on *why* you want to be depressed.

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  • instazombiinaboxx

    Depressed people tend to dampen people's days without meaning to. People sometimes avoid people who they deem "depressing" or "negative". Happy people brighten them without even trying. People love being around happy people because their happiness is almost contagious. You might want to sympathize with depressed and suicidal people and be able to say "I understand where you're at" but you don't need to because you are you and they are themselves and you balance eachother. Not everyone can be the same and why would anyone want to be?

    Just be yourself. It's enough.

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  • AcDcftw

    no not really abnormal... You just want something different than what your feeling atm? fit in with a mood?.. Idk im just making this stuff up as i type it...But remember you can do what ever you want its your body and mind...Do as you wish :)

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  • joybird

    Be thankful for a sunny disposition!! The closest you will come to understanding depression is unfortunately, a death in your family. Don't wish for it - be an inspiration to others who want to be like you!

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  • around you*

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  • Well... I'm going to describe depression for you. You're alone. Nobody understands. The people are you don't care. Everyday, everything brings you despair. You hate waking up. There is no passion for anything. Everything and everyone you used to enjoy has lost its touch. You search and search for something to break this fast, until you realize you never will find it. There is only one alternative. And that is death. That's depression. Why would you want that? I've attempted suicide three times, and used to think about it all day. Don't make yourself go there, that's just pathetic.

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  • alv1592

    what's wrong with you? I have a form of autism, and depression and anxiety are symptoms, and it's not a good feeling. I try to be happy and look at the positive side of things as much as possible. I suggest you keep being a positive person, and whatever you do, don't kill yourself.

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  • xEmilyStrangex

    This is hard to judge if it is normal or not normal, I would most deffinatly say it isn't common.

    I have suffered with depression a lot, I even attampted sucide in 2009, however as much as I hate the affect my depression has on my life I wouldn't change it for the world... I'm sure most people would think that is weird.

    I know you say that you are very happy and cannot be depressed, but to have feelings like this maybe something isn't quite right.

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  • silly billy

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  • dom180

    I think you probably have a real point here, but it is phrased really badly so most people don't seem to understand it.

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  • I'm sorry but I can't believe you even think this. I'll be honest here, I was clinically depressed and I attempted suicide more than once. I NEVER want to feel like that again, even describing it is impossible. It's a feeling of being utterly empty and numb, the world literally felt grey to me and I used to spend days just crying.

    You've made me kind of angry with this because to wish something like this on yourself is foolish and silly. There are people out there who would give anything to feel happy and you want to suffer? Don't be such a masochist.

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  • JazmineH

    What is wrong with you? That should not be something you WANT to feeling. Being depressed shouldn't be a good thing. You should not want to wallow in saddness. As you know, People commit suicide because of their depression and I hope you won't do that.

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