Is it normal to want to be depressed
I am a very happy person and I am not trying to complain but my life is really messed up. For some reason a few minutes after I cry, I start laughing like nothing ever happened. That bothers me because I want to be depressed and I want to look at that negative side of life but I can't. I knew people who have killed themselves and I want to be able to get to their level of sadness and I wish all the good in my life would go away.
IIN?