Is it normal to want my step dad after he used to molest me?

You could have Stockholm syndrome, but that still doesn't make it right. If youre stepfather did that to you, then he probably doesn't really care about you, if he did, then he wouldn't of molested you, he knew that was wrong.

Don't go back to him. I wouldn't.

This isn't normal at all. If he molested you he raped you.
He does not love you at all. No one who has ever loved their step kids has molested them. He doesn't care about you at all. Does your mom know about this? Is she still with him? If she is your mom is a piece of shit and is just as guilty. You should report him before he molests more children.

I hope he dies.

You shouldn't. You could do so much better.

The sex with my ex was kinky. It started as her calling me daddy in bed. Then it lead to me calling her "baby girl". Once we had sex on her dads bed when he was away and i could see how much she loved it. She used to suck on a pacifier and put a bib on while i fckd her. I miss it and ever since we broke up i havent been able to fill this fantasy with anyone and the urge just gets stronger.Honestly keep doing it, its the best.

I see no issue with wanting him as he wants you really. Did he ever cause harm to you? If he caused harm to you, then I would say no. But if he treated you as an equal partner, concerned as much with your pleasure as his, then I see no problem.

no that guys messed up in the head does your mum not see this going on

I don't know about the rest of this stuff, sounds to me like stepfather needs a good beating.

Where is your mother through all this shit?

I just wanted to say that 12 is a pretty normal age to start masturbating, not very young.

12 years old is not that early to start masturbating, I started at about 10 so you're fine

I'd say that your thoughts and desires are pretty normal for someone in your situation.

I consider myself to be a rather open-minded person when it comes to sexual things but i'd still advise you to see a psychiatrist about this, unless you haven't already.

If you STILL feel as if you wish to be with him sexually, go for it.

What he did to you was wrong and sick because you were robbed of your innocence, now you have the chance to be in control over it. Maybe you just want closure?

What YOU need to understand is that he isn't worthy of your attention and that you can find something so much better. There could also be the risk of you visiting him and realizing that you aren't interested in doing things with him AT ALL, and that he manages to take advantage of you yet again ...

Another thing you could explore would be ageplay, as in having sexual relationships with people that's older than yourself. People that aren't your Stepfather but rather people that resembles him.

Your father raped you as a child. I have spoken to rape victims before and they claim to hate it when its happening but later enjoy such acts. However this is not normal at all. I think you are dealing with the trauma of being raped and at the same time hormonal changes and sexual desire. I believe since that was your first sexual experience your mind is probobly jumping straight to that. However this is not a good thing, report this bastard because he needs to be arrested. Here is what you need to do. GO TO THERAPY. You need to talk to someone so you can deal with this issue. I don't think your brain is probobly processing it correctly at this time. You seem very confused about your emotions right now and I think a therapist would honestly be the best help for you. A lot of times when things like this happen to people the brain is not always sure how to deal with it. Your brain has probobly associated sex and sexual desire with your father since that is the most memorable sexual experience you have. Now if it was harmful sex or positive sex your brain seems to have associated them. Do not sleep with him AGAIN! Stay away from him, and see a therapist, and please report this man so he cant do this shit to anyone else!

You know what? I know plenty of people who love their kids and have sex. So if you want to that’s your business. If he made you feel good then go for it. And your mom is ok with it then enjoy it I’m sure she knows to wait for her man to get his pleasure with you and I’m sure you have needs now that he woke up your gspot

The fact that he was interested in you between 11 ad 16 makes him a pedo. I would report him and keep away from him. If your mother knows - she is as guilty. If she does not know - I would tell her in person. The fact that you like it now is because our first sexual experiances have a very strong effect on us and you now have powerful hormones... I am sure you can get a nice bf and be happy. What he did is totally wrong. He stole your youth and made you think about sex more than you should have back then to satisfy his own sick lust. He is pobably not good in bed and has a huge complex so that he has to attack young girls who do not know any better and trust him. He betrayed your mother and you.It is definitely not love you are looking for. I hope you can get over this and be happy. whatever you decide to do, keep away from him and do not allow him near your children (boys or girls). Or he might molest them as well and it would be your fault then as you knew what he is like...

I wanted to comment that my stepfather was watching me shower when i was about 16 and was watching me masturbate and massage my boobs, I had no idea he was there bending over and moving all sexual, I was singing, the high pressure of the shower head made me cum. I did it more than once, I leaned back with my pussy all open, and horney and I was cumming again, I opened my eyes to see him stroking his cock, and he was cumming at the same time as me. I felt so guilty, I was scared to tell my mom because I felt like I was doing something wrong. He didn't like me at all, As I got older and thought I had worked through it, I started having dreams about him, just taking it, and him eating me. I felt so grose, I started therapy. I had alot of issues with how sexual he was to me, I always felt responsible